嬷嬷 ,我會想你

当你脸上写着无可奈何的表情
你是否感觉到我思念的心
当泪水再也无法改变天的觉定
一万个的思恋理由我只能想
但思恋就这样浓烈的来决裂的去
只能看你再我的世界慢慢地流去
让寂寞莫名占据这颗思念的心
让我思念的不缠绵随风而去
没有你的日子里我会想你(嬷嬷)
黑夜来临时候我会想你(嬷嬷)
我无法抗拒你的点点滴滴
该怎样把你忘记
该怎样把你从记忆中抹去

(一首歌给我的嬷嬷)
我很思恋我的嬷嬷....
希望嬷嬷会在天堂会快乐....

永邦 每次都想呼喊妳的名字

Summary of November Life

Since today i never work and wait the time to pass and pick up precious & baobei,i just summarize some happy moments i had spent this month =)

08/11/2010

Went out with shiyim and our guys
and enjoy steamboat-ing @ one of bugis shop =)
11/11/2010
Baobei is improving on her writing=)


12/11/2010

Got my two precious class photo while i had work for a full shift that day and tiring
but it brighten up my tiredness cos i saw my 2 precious doing well in school =)18/11/2010

Was my 嬷嬷 100天的祭日,went with mummy and aunite and uncles to pray for my 嬷嬷...
Although i still miss her badly,but she will always in my heart =)

21/12/2010
Went out alone,was rather enjoy if the two men dun exists on that day to disturb me..=)
The BIG BIG bow tie to disturb people=)27/11/2020

Actually was a very great Saturday morning,someone bought me breakfast n help me do housechores.
But in the end in the afternoon Some pests is very irritating sms-ing me...
BUT WHAT IT THINK IT WAS
What do u think if a pest keep sms-ing u when it none of ur FRIEND or a people who always hang out with
and
say i had bother TOO MUCH of it's family problem..
(YOU THINK I AM SO FREE TO BOTHER URS FAMILY PROBLEM
AND I HAVE PLENTY OF MINE
WHO U THINK U "RE
GO AND DONE A GOOD RESEARCH THAN COME AND BLAME PEOPLE)
had what i had predict when things haven't occured..
I knew this kind of problem will happen..

So
Whatever my conscience is CLEAR
But than it think that by saying me
and cursing me
will make me feel agitated..
(doesn't need to xplain so much)

(Just hope ur hp number will not appear in my hp ANYMORE)

Even if i am fat,i have noone to love this is my problem..
THIS IS MY LIFE,MY PROBLEM

This world is like this u choose the wrong road wrong people and who to choose the wrong
PEST to mixed
It might pester u for sometime..
It not only pester u alone and the people around also..

As a FRIEND we dun need to care about FAMILY MATTER
We share n listen to problem
I define best friends as people who are closest to you. Stand by you, love and accept you the way you are,even your flaws.
YOU DUN KNOW HOW TO TREASURE AND DO WHATEVER U LIKE TO ANYONE
IS YOU...
BUT THAN NOT TO THE EXTEND TO U ANYHOW USE UR BLOODY MOUTH
TO POINT OR BLAME ON PEOPLE TO BOTHER TO MUCH ON UR FAMILY MATTER..

AND TREAT UR FAMILY AND LOVED ONES BADLY
&
BLAME THE WHOLE WORLD..

I wish you GOOD LUCK IN EVERYWAY PEST..

After the whole long post,what happen on last saturday,went back amk with 2 precious =)
Great day but mummy is sick ..
hope mummy will get well soon =)

I wish This coming decemeber going to be,i will be feeling great
although still very tight tight tight..
But if No MORE PESTS around
i think i feel happier
even buy 4d n toto
will tio abit of $$$$$$..
Also have to work hard n earn more moolahs
to clear
MY Debt (Friend who help me) n BILLS..

我的哥哥的婚礼@28112010

(我的哥哥和大嫂
的婚礼)

mummy & precious

(My 2 nieces & cousin)
Happy Family
Baobei playing with the gifts that prepared for the guest..
she loved the gift so much
taking as and when...
(I forgot to the bring the gift back haiz....)

Me with the dress (Put in the wardrobe n had never been wore BEFORE)
大伯&Precious

Saw the video brother make for their wedding
Feel so touched and feel like crying
(i dun know why)
Somehow i wish 嬷嬷 was siting in the dining table
but i knew i am dreaming
turn back n look..
I though i was dreaming
I saw 大伯was siting on the table...
i didn't know he will be there
Precious saw him when he went to the smoking area and
he went over and gave him a hug ..


嬷嬷 must be very happy for brother for sure,
although she may not witness them
and not siting together in the wedding dinner..
She will feel happy that
大伯came to brother's wedding dinner
he still somehow care about the family he belong =)
(i was also very susprise)...


Although spent hours to wait for a cab
and feel tired looking after 2 precious from the wedding start till end of it.
Still worth it..
Happy for my brother marry his loved ones..
Is my 大嫂...
Wishes both of them
永远恩恩爱爱
白头到老....

Random update

Starting from monday till now work work & work..
Susprise from my company gave us a christmas hat
we had too put on for 1 month..OMG!!!

Recently business is damn bad,customer getting lesser n lesser
the working place air con is not working well,feeling very hot EVERYTIME..
Always complaining with colleagues how hot i am..

Yesterday feel so dizzy when working,dun know i smell to much perfumes in the shop..
Came back n feel so awful..
Hope i can manage to clear my debts & bills by january 2011...
I knew always end with this sentence but i knew i can do it...jia you jia you =)
(Pls kindly click on my ads if u happen saw it...thanks amillion)
(Another 2 days my brother is getting married =)

Going out myself =ALONE

Early in the morning,Precious came over my bed and wake me up,see still can smile so i have no choice to wake up and bring them to school after prepare and they have their breakfast..

See my baobei is still in a blur blur mode..she is thinking:"didi next time u can dun wake up so earli ma."Out of the house=>Playing together

My hair is growing lol i cannot find my last photo but my hair is really growing...My colour is not black anymore lol..Colour fade

Decide to go out in the afternoon when MR HONG Mother is bringing the kids out..

Take photo before going out =)When over to bukit panjang to find my ex colleagues and friend Catherine,ever since i stop working @ (telcom company) i had not been stepping in bukit panjang till today..I had not been siting in LRT for 3 years plus..Simply sound like amountain tortoise..Even though i am singaporean i still alot of NEW SHOPPING MALLS N THE UNIVERSAL STUDIO i still haven't stepped in before lol...I must make use of this time faster earn more more money and go there and REALLY SHOP,EAT N ENJOY..
Afterthat went over cck find limei and BHG is having CRAZY SALE alot of people was crowd in the mall,while waiting for ah mei to finish work,went over to the pasar malam and saw my favourite 'FISH TELOR" and while walking while eat..So long never had this very shiok feeling cos was so CRISPY AND NICE..While eating got this two men was infront of me and talking to me...%$^&%^*(&()*) and saying u very familiar lei and u last time leave hougang ar and etc...I had saw this two idiots @ BHG but than i thought they are just joining the fun in the crazy sale..So never bother than at pasar malam also saw them lol..
I didn't say a single words i continue to eat my things walk here n there and than have stick and they will still keep following..
Hazel call me and listen told her about that 2 idiots
had been following me lol..
Ask me go take MRT and go elsewhere..
So think think decide to take MRT back...
But after all i still having a great day =)


Heard Catherine say that gal who anyhow telling the colleagues in another branch when i start working with her for a few hours and end up i scold her and i quit my job...I even shared my commission with her and just trying to build the colleagues-ship and just because i went up to the cashier to collect money from the customer..She can just anyhow tell the colleagues,i 'eat" the customer money ANYHOW

I believe noone want to be accused
and
few years lata
2 month back
She kanna sack and was reported to police
cos what
she had accussed me..

I never curse her, i just dun like her
in the end she in this type of stages

I have to go re-flect myself
i doesn't want to end up like her
i knew i stubborn
i have re-flect to treat people is older than me x 40 in ages above included my parent
cos my conscience is very clear to everyone
i believe in retribution
since people treat me bad go ahead
i just be myself..
"I will not earn but i also will not lose"

Random post!!!

Thursday early in the morning wake up at 5 am and bath prepare and out of my home @ 7am...(nowadays i really know how to' mo' here and there) find what transportation i am taking to amk..Mrt OR buses..Decision made pack my things and slowly walked to the nearby bus-stop to come...
One of my friend call and chit chat awhile,and realised my batt is gonna low,cos she knew i am going to pray my 嬷嬷 in the morning,u was so shocked when she heard the bell sound coming from the bus,Gal u take bus ar,and say wah now u know how to take bus liao wor...very good a very good start lol..happy for u..
(cos my this friend dun like to take cab but if necessary she will hail a cab cos she think taking cab is a waste of money) but i also think the same as her BUT sometime i just tired to squeeze into the bus with so many people..

I took 2 hours to reach amk was late cos mummy meet my aunt @ 9am at the place where we put 嬷嬷 there..
Luckily we take cab go cos mummy bring alot of things for praying 嬷嬷...how heavy also can take cos is for my 嬷嬷..The weather was so bright & sunny but i never complain i knew 嬷嬷 is happy..=)
(i make a mistake i didn't know cannot wear RED for 100 days lol i didn't wear for 49 days lol and told my mummy when she take clothes and change,and she say 孙不用计的啦...)she didn't how bad i feel lol but i really dun know ...

Guess what time is it when i take tis photo (early in the morning 5 am)

Nothing to do so take picture of myself lol =) my face so "cui'

(Jialat lol my hair is in even colour )


I hope everyday i can be like the smiley face
(HAHAHAHA)

(My $ book cum multi purpose book)

Friday go work in the morning and was chatting with colleagues while wiping the products...The business nowdays is damn bad,10am-12pm the customer came in can be count lol..But after the time business getting better abit..That day only earn a few buck for my incentives..Is time to changes a incentive book for next year..I knew my notebook is very 'cui" cos i keep squeezing into my apron pocket that why..and sometime take out and fan myself cos the air con is not COOL at all..Even customer complain also ..

Jp @ Hari Raya Haji

(Baobei & Me)
Before going JP snap me and baobei lol with my cam cos i still didn't really familiar with cam when mybrother & dao sao give it to me...Play for a few minutes===>
LOW BATT than
TOTALLY NO BATT..
(so bo bian have to used my hp camera)

I had actually plan to bring 2 precious to Jp today but unfortunately yesterday nigh i was being a MERLION vomit 4-5 times but i feel better this morning...Precious was with Mr HONG's mother care and he look after sarah and he also sick.. Luckily managed to brought Baobei out in the late afternoon...Had take some photo with the christmas tree and etc...Love the christmas theme @ JP although i not a PRECIOUS MOMENT FAN but i love it...There is angel on the CHRISTMAS TREE at least JP made a effort to made a THEME this year..
Let the photo do the talking=======>

On the way to JP,We walked over half way rain faster RUN ar take aphoto of baobei and she keep asking ,"Where is DIDI.." since morning =(

@JP kopitiam waiting for MR HONG to order our food
see baobei so HAPPY =)

Baobei & Her fatherSaw this two mickey & minnie pendant ,
I tell myself when i clear my debts and bills
and i will bought this two pendant
for
my 2 precious =)
(My first wishlist for 2011)

My very FIRST BLOG @ friendster
My second blog @ mutiplyThe recent blog @ blogger

Was reading thru the blog i had updated before..Had been updating since 2006 till now..Can really see that i love to wrote a very long post everytime...Dun know how to come to straight point at time...No matter what who cares...

Since my 嬷嬷 left us and go to another happy world,i had once wanted to stop updating...I dun know why i just no mood to update...I think i have been very understanding to what this world is like how people change how people treat me as and how people is so realistic at TIMES...I choose to forgive and forget but STILL NOT ENOUGH...But when my MARRIAGE had really cannot be help,cannot be save ,Noone understand how i feel But luckily i not alone,i have friends surround me and give me the care n concern n the help in my financial...

My life is full of happening things....I dun know when will be a STOP n i can start my own life with my 2 precious n happiness will start..I dun like to hate someone,i dun even like to quarrel and i dun want to be a calculative person....Simply know that i had been helping this family alot ,dun tell me about how much u own someone and i am also owning some of my friend the help the $$$$...I didn't say i didn't tell doesnt mean i siting at home and be a tai tai..I knew my life will not be a TAI TAI LIFE but than not to that extend THAT I START to HATE SOMEONE FOLLOW BY ANOTHER...=ALL IN A FAMILY I'm am a woman and i also someone daughter TOO....U wanted to RUIN UR children life i am no right to STOP but PLS DUN RUIN MINE CHILDREN...

I really have to think of my and children future i doesnt want a so unstable life and let my children to suffer..If i want to give my children a complete family but not to the extend of irresponsible act and show bad example to my children ... From today onward i will work as many days as possible and earn more money to let me have a secure life for my children and pay my debt and clear my bill...I have pile of bill and friends to clear....

I know myself what i need to do who to respect and who i dun...Cos u dun give me the respect as a human being why do i need to do SO...Dun use ur mouth and finger to point and say and u dun even see urself how much u worth people to RESPECT..How much money u have is ur own business ,If i would because of MONEY can do anything I WILL NOT BE HAVING THIS TYPE OF LIFE NOW...I dun care how u say me BUT ONCE U STEP MY FEET I WILL PROTECT MYSELF BY NOT DOING THE SAME THINGS AS YOU....

Today 有多一个朋友,来找我.....她是KELLY one of my colleague n friend too...
Dun know what it in my mind
I volunteer to help her
paint his nail
& clip her hair straight..
Let the photo do the talking===>

After that we went over to the KTV i usually go to sing.......The first time going with her,the very first song we sang 痛哭的人,made her tears she told me is her bunch of friend and her 主题曲....She say my voice sing song very 好听,told her she the first person who say that...Noone say my singing is good or no good no comment at all la..Whatever thank for her treat to KTV although now we working in Different company we are still friend...

Kelly lose a lot of weight from a L size little ladies to a S size little ladies...
I really have to learn from her..
I had been stuck to L size woman to only abit to M size only..
Sometime envy those woman i saw
who give birth
still look so slim and pretty...=)
(When will be my turn lei)

Wonder what my weight now??