The recent me
(sibei 'cui' face)

I know i shouldn't grumble at this time and this day
BUT I DON"T CARE...

Have been sick for a few weeks(uncountable)
Thanks colleagues and friends
who care n concern
and the sms,calls and even visit-ing me a few time a weeks..
Since i am waiting for my time to eat medicine
I shall start a bit on what had happen recently
THIS WORLD REALLY HAVE
THOSE PEOPLE ACTS IN THE DRAMA,
REALLY APPEAR IN MY OWN LIFE..
Cannot really lend a hand to help people
(i know i am very busybody)
When they are alright
they can do anything
and
say anything they want or like..

Even if i am not in the picture
they drag me in the picture
and end up realised
Oh
to this people
'I am a person like that'

I had really dun know
i am puzzled
but this few weeks
I had enough more to struggle
so to that problem
is just let me see how PEOPLE is react-ing..

I love to act
I love to spread
I Love to whatever

I dun need everyone know
what is happening
cos
as long as
i know myself
understand a person is not diffcult
but when understand a person who change like a demon
really very scary..

Better curse me MORE
I really get used to the expect happening problem
BUT IS TOO MUCH
TOO MANY...

This few weeks many things happen too many things
人心真的很难侧...
If i don't have people who keep advice
and help me in any ways
I will not be here to grumble so much..
I am gone crazy and in IMH
or even in the hell..

I always think of others
But than what is happen-ing NOW
is not what i can control...
Feel really depressed when this happen to me
IS TOO SUDDEN...
I know i have to be strong
But
i have the heart to do so
But but body is the important part i can take it anot
Once collasped
I think hard to get back..
(THOSE WHO CURSED ME WILL FEEL VERY HAPPY
I AM IN THIS STAGE NOW
LAUGH AS U CAN)
GO AHEAD AND LAUGH

I know myself
2 precious need me
i also need them..
I am trying hard to get back myself
try not to think much
work as i can
be a good mummy as i could
i cannot promise anymore
I REALLY REALLY TRY ..

GAMBLER ALWAYS ONLY THINK EVERYTHING NOT ENOUGH
LIAR ALWAYS LIE WHEN IT COME TO A HABIT
DUN REGRET WHEN WHAT U HAD DONE
BUT U MIGHT AREADI AREADI
AFFECT PEOPLE LIFE??
WHO DOESN"T KNOW LIFE IS IMPORTANT
FIGHT FOR UR LOVED ONES
EVEN U HAD ONLY LEFT ONLY A BREATHE..

I doesn't want to hear or see any tragic things happen anymore
I told myself i must choose to be more selfish n
I will never gain i only get PAIN..