======MARRIAGE===============

Marriage is a lifetime
Some marriage can be treasure & last forever
But there is some marriage
is not about treasure or forever
IS....
the
COMPROMISE & COMMITMENT...

There is some reader is concerning ME & HIM n send thru my e-mail for these few week:

"He say wanted a very last chance from me and he will used his whole life to compensate for he had done for me..'I tell him off i feel like vomit and puke..."

Some of my friend even say we are alright aready
I reply,"NO"
sometime i went out with friends
he will tag along if 2 precious follow me
He is there cos he is taking care of the children
as a daddy position..

Precisely I really very tired of getting so angry about what he had done,
i even told him many many time i dun want this marriage ANYMORE..
I am not saying LIKE i am singing song
I had apply for divorce
-------------------------------------------
It take quite along time to proceed..


I dun want to waste any more time
to give a person a chance
who doesn't treasure the
marriage & family..

If he can change he only benefit on him
NOT ME..
At least i can have some freedom
Spend time with friends
when he stay at home to look after 2 precious..

If he can prove to me how he treasure this marriage & family
within a year
and
change..

Not forcing or threatening him cos i had tell him that my heart is died for this marriage,
let him see the document for divorce
Lawyer say no harm if he really want a real change...



I listen to every friend advice
in my heart
there is some keep asking me give him one more chance,and telling me how good he has been,
there is some even say if i will be u i will divorce him straight away ,i cannot tolerate this type of man
there is some telling me u dun deserve to be treated like that
there is some ask me to think of my 2 precious
there is many friend who give me alot advice and advice..

But something talking to friend is really very important,
if when u are in the same situation like me
even there is some marriage is really no choice to be continue
we dun encourage people to DIVORCE
We give idea and help..

Every woman thinking of a marriage is very very different...
anyway
I really listen and done my decision..
I will not replying anything regarding about I& HIM
anymore..

I am not encourage any woman to do the same as me, Marriage is not a game.. If can give and take marriage life will be easy, Don't be to calculative about what another partner is doing... Do what u like and let the other partner to do so.. Everyone do mistake.. Husband or wife also .. Forgive n forgave and dun let the mistake to drift the marriage apart.. But some mistake can be forgive but some is not.. So depend how treasure marriage to everybody Sometime depend on luck there is people always b the forgiven ones but there is some who always be the one make the mistake is depend to individual life...

My baobei first performance....

Today early in the morning, WAKE UP PREPARE and off to 2 precious school,bring sarah in and let the teacher to do some touch up...Is my first time make-up for my baobei lol and i feel so excited to watch my baobei to perform in a stage...I doubt not only me,To let myself relax and stand up outside the school i take picture=

See how many parent is excited & waiting to go in to the school and sit down n wait for their children and watch their performance...

In the lift waiting to bring baobei to school...

The blur me didnt even go explore the camera @ home so was abit unfamiliar ,thought that the camera doesnt come with ZOOM function hahaha...I dun really know how to use ,must find one free day have to bring it out & explore that CAMERA,i'm too treasure the camera kept in my drawer and lock it and than always use my hp camera to take photo...

I should really treasure that camera cos was my very first gift from my brother and dao sao...Lol I took alot of photo but than was very unclear version so didn't updated luckily the school is selling the dvd later on..(So heng la sure buy and keep it..)

I really never thought my baobei will perform in the stage and even dance so well..I proud of her and no matter how i dun like to work in that company or what is ALL WORTH IT..

My 2 precious

The very first photo they taken together

they take photo together

they drink milk with milk bottle together

They do action together

They lie on the mattress together to take picture
(They even went school together)

This 2 precious of mine,my angel,my monster and my companion..Saw them today when they came home with their daddy from school...I suddenly feel that i had slightly neglected them this few days...But i knew if i dun have them , i will not be working in the company cos what had happen recently....I am very stress but than tell myself i have to work to earn money for them...The very first day of working in this company ( i really wanted not to go to work cos something had happen also end up i sleep @ 3-4 plus) bring the 2 precious to school and the look i saw them when i wave to them...I TELL MYSELF I HAVE TO WORK FOR THEM COS EVEN IS ABIT BUT THAN I CAN BUY THEM SOMETHING THAT I EARN MYSELF & I KNEW THEIR IS A RESPONSIBLE TO THEM WHEN I BRING THEM TO THIS WORLD...(also let me realised that how irresponsible i am when i working previously in my young day)...

What wrong with me,i ask myself (the haggard face)
But not to worries my friends and godsis
I will try to stay strong
and
STRONG
STRONG..

THANK FOR ALL THE CONCERN and CARE
I LUG U all... :)




Thank shiyim to help me to change my blogskin and i knew she had helping alot since we know each other...
Thank godsis & her bf for the accompany whenever she knew something went wrong with me,and alot alot alot..

thank for friend who had helped me alot alot alot..i really thank u all so much...

朋友一生一起 过

I have always think as a FRIEND i had done as my part...There is always friend telling me "A few friends will be enough"... Lately including myself there is a few friends have the same situation with me,have marriage problem...Even thought my marriage had been down to don't know where,but as a friend i lend my listening ear to Friend and if they dun know what happen to me i also dun want to say anymore..I doesnt want to keep repeating the same things same people and doubt my friends will listen till sleep lol...Why i will be this,cos i love to share to others cos i get it from my friend...My friend never give up on me they are being with me since secondary till now..I treasure any friendship i build but i will feel upset when any person do something bad to me...

When i grow,The expectation being a friend is still the same,i love to talk to any friends we can even chat till hours or even a day...I dun hide things to people i can tell my stories to people even if only knowing for 2 weeks ...This is like that i know many nice friend around,sometime I only need people to understand but friend around is giving advice of anything i listen i decide..We dun live in the same way of life but we also dun want they live the same life are living too but sometime we cannot decide..I really appreciate even those who dun even know me had giving me advice since my grandmother passed away..If i really dun have friend really call friend i will never ever go through till now..I dun expect them to help me everytime when i need money ,i dun mind they say things straight forward to me cos they care and concern but than there is some who only come to me when they have facing some problem and etc...I willingly to help in any ways i can but than dun treat what i had gave for granted...I am anything person but not stupid person..I have my limit too..Yesterday i was chatting with of my friend,she is checking up how me and him,told me alot and share with me her marriage and the advice and she still have to wake @ 6.30 to go hospital for check up..

I had really realised that MONEY is the most effective things to test A PERSON OR A FRIEND....Money is sensitive , doesn't mean those who lend money or didn't lend money they are not good or good..BUT is the way money works where the character come out because of money...

I knew myself also very easy trust people so sometime also cannot blame PEOPLE ANYHOW..

I am not very proud how i treat him but than different people have to be treated differently...

Sometime i also will make mistake so i dun expect people cannot make mistake..

We must know how to judge what mistake can be forgiven but what not..If we really can change a person why not..Helping friend when they are feeling very sad and how my marriage is i still am able to worry n care n conern about my friend..This is what my friend tell," u had some many things to bother urself,why must u go bother people things.." how i dislike a person is my problem i dun even want to make people to quarrel even how i really dun like this person..." Where can u find this type of people go and find

I not saying how good i am but than dun treat me i really anything also dun mind..

Just an advice to every woman and included myself:

Violence and abusive can be control= (is case to case)

Protect urself and children (if any)
If u cannot protect urself pls dun think of protecting ur children..
Get help get someone who can help to stop violence and abusive..
(Who love to stay will abomb and dun know when will it explode)
Him also had mention this before
He describe as a bomb before in one of ours quarrel the problem is i explode and use word to shoot him only...

I believe people will make mistake,not letting to let mistake going and going....Life i want i have to made my own decision not letting someone who decide for me..If so called a FRIEND they advice they dun mind spending hours hours to talk to u,not only when u need $$$$$ they lent u a helping hand or making use of...

Life only live once is up to everyone to choose what ways,there is no u - turn for life or like drama can change just change the script..

Hating a person is very tiring why must u hate a person and than still helping up and grumble..Dun let people to control life they can control ur habit BUT NOT UR LIFE..

If a person really want a chance, we can forgive but we must see how sincere he really want this chance..

We dun make ourselves cheap even thought we are marry,we also can make ourselves valuable to let men to treasure not to throw at home and enjoy themselves outside..

Laris 4th birthday @ Explorer Kids

Happy birthday to Laris
happy birthday to u.....

My very first going to Explorer Kid and precious also..Sarah never tag along mummy bring her to eat
with my brother and friends..Taste the food for their wedding..I will promise to bring her go to play the ball session..
That day was totally free for the kids who attend Laris's birthday party...
Anyone have more good suggestion instead knew that Explorer kid is damn
expensive if i am not a member...
Bring 2 precious to enjoy again
cos i promised Sarah that
"mummy will bring her go"

Thank for Ah mei's mummy and Ah zhen help me look after mikkiel and 3 of us plus him
was walking around E-hub...Ah zhen was tired helping me look after mikkiel and Ah mei mother take turn
to help me look after..
Of course thank them for helping me
so i have some free time with my sistas..

(It been so long time we go out together
although was a short trip
i still feel happy
at least we are together like last time
but everyone seem to grow up
but i believe the friendship &
Sistership will forever)

Below is some picture taken @ Explorer Kids

whose secy leg that mikkiel is hugging on...
Didn't bring any sock with us..
We bought it at a push cart around E-hub..
tada
ah mei ,Anqi,ping mei and mine
feets..=>


We are chatting and chatting in the aloha chalet till 3 plus than off we
go to E-hub..
Saw my feet i am siting on the floor
cos the bed is too sift for me...
(&^^$#%$#%*
till time reach lol..

Soo Meng came after work and fetch everyone home...
A wonderful day with my seconday school buddy cum sistas..

My recent life :>

The first few day i start to work in this company
During June 2010

Mid of August
(Attending my 嬷嬷 funeral)

21 October 2010
Officially with the company
working part time
for 4 months...

4 months working in this company,although the salary is the most important things that i always complaining about and some small small matter..I starting to love this job but i knew this job will not be lasting me for long..I enjoy chatting with colleagues and learning every little product and recommend to the customer who came in...From next post onward will slightly share some good item that was in my company...Going to sleep nitex everyone..

Very hot weather

(My precious having sore eye...)

Today went to work as usual ,2 precious teacher call when i was working saying mikkiel was having sore eye after hours of observation..Ask their daddy to take childcare leave and than i continue to work till evening cos one of my colleagues is sick got one day MC...Daddy bring him to see doctor and gave mikkiel 4 days MC so the other 3 days i will be staying at home to looking after him..

Recently i had been dropping hair like "FREE" lol..Had been stop applying my hair tonic for maybe a few weeks...This very good example for the woman who like me
SIMPLY LAZY lol..
The weather now is SO SO HOT and
the HAZE made me cough and flu...
(Jump topics very fast rite)

Woman like me dun be lazy,there is no ugly women got only lazy bum..
I saying myself..hahah

My brother and ( my going to be sister in law) wedding photo...
Attending their wedding real soon..
Ever since i marry till now
This is my first time attending wedding
and his my own bro wedding..
Dun know how will i feel on that day
excited..

Have to start to buy their present
and start to get 2 precious clothes for their wedding...
$$$$$$$$$
hope my bank account will grow money
soon...

The weather is bloody hot...

My 2 precious

So sweet right!!!

Chasing each other because of one empty bottle...

The Glue is recommend by my friend who used for double eyelid for alot alot of years saw her using this when i was 18 years old..But i just dun know how to use that fake eyelashes that my friend bought for me...( wasted)My 2nd attempt to attach fake eyelashes = Failure (Drop off after a few minutes)

My Very First Time Using Eyeliner pencil
I look abit wired when i saw myself in mirror,
cos my 27 years of life
dun have a eyeliner pencil exist in my comestic bag b4(haha)..
and fake eyelashes..

Sometime putting some light make up i am alright..
I realised my mascara,lipstick and some other had been expired
i have been not putting make-up since 2007
all throw away
got to buy some
when i need too...

I have some problem to upload photo so
just share some here..My dearest godsis,my dear crystal and lynn
thank for the accompany and many many things they
have done...:)

Below is some heart words that i cannot say out in my mouth,


I have to thank all my friends who care and worry about me..
I cannot mention names here cos properly
will be alot and i will just remember in my heart...

Brought me out to sing and dinner,Accompany me even have bf or family
Call me and advice me
Worry whether do i have enough $$$ to use
Helping me in $$ no matter how long we dun contact n we dun meet
There is alot alot alot
to mention

Some people even say i dun look like got any problem
I can even joke around and of course
If i doesnt have friends like that
i dun think i can be so strong and
whatever...

That is why i always put friend somehow infront of him..
The advice and the hours of conversation with anyone
I remember
the help
always in my heart..

Thank you all friend ...
This is why no matter how FRIENDSHIP remind
and FRIEND CALL
and
MEANINGS
IS..

Once again
THANK YOU SO MUCH
Lug u all..

(Finally i had my own 1st digital camera was from my brother and dao sao.....)
thank them if not i cannot even capture sarah 1st performance on 30 October
on their graduation day...
Didn't know that they know i wanted a CAMERA
was susprise
but many many
thank to
them...

My brother also getting marry soon but than still have't thought what i can give both of them
of cos my blessing is important..
28112010
their wedding day...

:我会想你,嬷嬷

<我亲爱的嬷嬷>

当你脸上写着无可奈何的表情
你是否感觉到我思念的心
当泪水再也无法改变天的觉定
一万个的思恋理由我只能想
但思恋就这样浓烈的来决裂的去
只能看你再我的世界慢慢地流去
让寂寞莫名占据这颗思念的心
让我思念的不缠绵随风而去
没有你的日子里我会想你(嬷嬷)
黑夜来临时候我会想你(嬷嬷)
我无法抗拒你的点点滴滴
该怎样把你忘记
该怎样把你从记忆中抹去

(一首歌给我的嬷嬷)
我很思恋我的嬷嬷....
希望嬷嬷会在天堂会快乐....