Post 84

Recently the weather is damn wired...The sun can be so bright and hot and the next minute the sky will turn dark and the rain pour so suddenly it be on and off for a few weeks...My weekends had spent quite well but of course always wanted to end the day something surely happen and make my days turn from :) to :(....

7.11.09 Saturday

Early in the morning,sarah and mikkiel wake up around 7 plus so i start to feed and bathe them and start to pack and prepare while waiting for hubby to come home...Hubby reach home and off we go to take cab to jurong west....Reached there saw a pasar malam helding on , is rather big and many stall had open and rarely see pasar malam in the morning and the stall is open...Many people is walking here and there,went to the clinic to take my diet pill and beside the posb atm there is alot of people q-ing up to withdraw money...I dun know why every part of jurong always is like this on saturday and sunday the atm machine is alway alot of people q-ing lol...Waited for a few minutes and collect my pill and off we go...Unfortunately we can walk to long cos hubby has to work cos his friend is coming to fetch us home and hubby have to start work...Didn't buy anything bought breakfast and pasar malam popcorn....No matter what hubby try his best to accompany go for short walk and i know he is very tired...Imagine everyday only manage to sleep less than 5 hours...

Reached home sarah and mikkiel went to take a early nap cos i doubt they wake up too early...While i taking my breakfast shiyim called me and she tell me a good news she is going out and work soon...Congrate to her and i know she can do it feel happy for her too...She was in her bff's house so we didn't chat very long....Playing fb games to pass my time faster when the kids is sleeping...I was addicted to the games again from "Pet society to soronity life to Cafe world"....Alot of my friend keep telling me how nice is Cafe world but didn't really into it but who know really into this game i was addicted..Actually is the same type of game like pet society but i still love it anyway i have 3 games playing on hand...Evening time, godsis came to look for me after she went to bugis for praying...I bring her to the pasar malam that i morning had go while sarah go out with hubby's mum and i brought mikkiel out with godsis...Did not buy much thing walk here and there,walk pass a salon and tell godsis i feel like trimming my hair,godsis say go lo i help u look after mikkiel...i reallly have to thank her cos she actually has to go back home around 7 plus but she still ask me go cut she wait for me and help me look after mikkiel...Finish cutting is around 8 plus and take afew photo with godsis and off we go and cabbed back to my nearby place and accompany godsis to wait bus...Brought mikkiel home and mikkiel dun really recognised who i am after i cut my hair...i talk to him he see me with his big eyes without blinking but when i take a hair pin and pin on my fringe he start to recognise me back...So funny lol...While waiting hubby's mum to brough sarah back pack the things i bought and when sarah came back , bathed her and three of us sleeping like a log...I enjoy my saturday lol

8.11.09 Sunday

Everything is alright in the morning till evening...The same things i have to do and played with the kids...I have some argument with hubby and quarrel...The same old things always happening same people same situation...i cannot stand anymore and tell my point of view to hubby..This time round at least he know what he is doing...Sometime people always think of them ownself =selfish just because this type of people exists is this world and make us quarrel lol....We alway have quarrel because of people outside i know very rubbish but than just that hubby dun know how to see things clearly and met alot of cunning,scary and selfish people..After hubby come back from work i dun feel like talking to him and keep quiet and he keep saying alot of things and make me feel he really did things never really go and think,i hope he can learn from his mistake and stop repeating the same old ones...But he is not the one i should blame is just i vent the anger on him cos that people is some who related to him...i hope no more this type of problem anymore cos i really cannot get used of this type of people living in this world only think of ownself if everyone behave like this there is alot of enemies in this world no peace and hope god will change them ..Since hubby now can really work hard for this family hope everything will be fine and go well soon...I only want a simple and happy life izzn;t so difficult.....

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Post 83

oh no my round face


see my fabby arm and my tummy so big lol...oh my god
last night i went in to my bedroom and snap a picture of myself and off to my lala land @ 11pm..

Is raining outside the weather is abit humid,how cum rain still feeling so hot...thunder roar awhile...the kids is sleeping while i was updating here...Yesterday i am able to sleep early with sarah & mikkiel...but 6 am wake up to make milk for mikkiel i thought i awake but i am just too tired and go back to sleep...9 am wake up saw hubby playing game and he greet me good morning and i just too tired to reply went to the kitchen and get the ingredient i going to cook and today menu is 卤肉饭 and minced meat porridge with potatoes,get ready the ingredient and start to cook i used 1hr time to done my cooking..Hubby went to sleep and bring the kids to bathing after that feed them with their lunch after 11 plus...Wake hubby up and he has his lunch before going to work,he praise my 卤肉饭 delicious and he say my cooking is improving and taste better than before...When hubby went out to work i have to do the washing and mop the kitchen floor...Finally finish my housechores near 1 pm and sit down and play fb games while marry call and we chit chat for awhile...My butt stuck on my computer chat for 30 mins and start to do my housechores again clean here and there and keep the toy properly while sarah and mikkiel is taking their naps...

Housechores housechores everyday but i still putting weight haiz yesterday i take out my weight machine and weight myself and ask hubby to help me see what my weight while i standing on it:Guess how much i weight 54kg but i still look fat(see the photo above)i have flabby arm ,thick waistline and tummy getting rounder oh no WTF i am getting on diet next monday so i have 3 more days to enjoy any food anyhow...i have plan my diet and gonna write on a paper and paste on the fridge so everyday while i taking out the food to cook i will remember i am going on diet not to eat SO MUCH and after 7 pm no food can be consume...i am going to be strict on myself this time hope it will work...This few weeks i was always with the kids and hubby have to go out and work everyday only manage to sleep for 5 hours...morning go out 11 and come back 5 plus and 6 plus went to work again and came back next morning 9 am..."JUst received a msg from hubby he will not be getting his salary today again" i really get used to it his morning job alway like this i wonder he is working for this company for almost 1 years from $40 a day drop to $30 a day from a week salary to everyday salary yet sometime he never manage to take his salary everyday...How hard he work i think noone will appreciate what he done and go out to work is earn money but than he work but than never get the amount he is taking and i wonder will he get bonus? last time i used to blame him about his job but than now i realised i shouldn't blame on him he is working because of this family he has the reason why he is sticking to this job i finally understand i alway quarrel over with him about his job and etc....But no matter what i dun want him to work so many hours i just want him to find a stable job ,stable income...i thought i will not be having any long post today...Nowaday i was addicted to mobtv select i been watching 企鹅爸爸 to Parental Guidance whenever i free and i switch off my computer earlier compared to the past day..

Post 82

sarah & mikkiel just born

sarah & mikkiel 1 month

sarah & mikkiel 2 monthsarah & mikkiel 3 month


sarah & mikkiel 4 month

sarah & mikkiel 5 month

sarah & mikkiel 6 month

sarah & mikkiel 7 month

sarah & mikkiel 9 month

sarah 11 mth

Can't believe that my baobei and precious had grown so much...Today afternoon siting down on my computer table while sarah and mikkiel was taking their nap...I saw alot of their photo in friendster acc...From just born till now the changes of them was so much .Time flies very fast now is areadi november next year sarah is going to school and another 7 month mikkiel is going to childcare and i am going out to work...I have to treasure the time that i staying at home with both of them..I knw when i go out and work i will have lesser time for them but i will try to work hard with hubby and give them a better life see them happy i will be happy...他们真的长大了....

Post 81

Wow have to say bye to october and welcome the month of novemeber..today is 1st november 2009...Another 2 month it will be 2010 areadi..Another one month and 24 days is mikkiel 1st birthday....Still wondering what types of celebration BBQ,buffet or chalet...Have to calculate the expenses cos we are quite tight this few month and after mikkiel's birthday another 2 month time will be chinese new year alot of things need to buy and of course money play a very important part too...Still wondering hubby will get his bonus anot...i know i am very free lately cos at night hubby not at home and i dun need to let anyone use the computer while the children is asleep but i feel abit of lonely..What to do is life :)

"We always wanted to save money but than alway money no enough how to save."

Alot of friend had share their saving tips to me but i dun think is not suitable for us...My hubby now dun have a stable jobs and he never work in a big company no CPF no benefits no leave if one day he is sick (i afraid of) no compensate too...NO insurance coverage TOO...i understand why he has to be like this cos of our family but than i really hope he can find stable job and have a nice boss and have the benefit that employer has can areadi...I know he had been working hard but i just want him to work one job and spent time with family and sometime he also can spent time with his friend ...Man also need their own time too BUT than must manage their time well first or else Spent time outside more than family after work is call NEGLECTING..I have to go set some goal and wishlist for 2010 and life must have some goal and wish than life will not be so empty...Agree My wish this month is i can have a peaceful and happy life with my family hope there is no happening things going on....

i hope my face will be like this everyday when the life is on going days by days not only HOPE i WANT IT ...

Smile everyday happy forever is what i want
(will my wish come true,aladdin i need you badly can u kindly lend me ur whatever pot)

HAPPY NOVEMBER TO EVERYONE TOO :)

Advanced Happy Birthday to my dearest PaPa

生日快乐to my dearest 爸爸

我来唱一首歌
祝你生日快乐
生命真的可喜
让我向你祝贺
我来唱一首歌
祝你生日快乐
因为有这一天
我们才能唱和
天天相见
说不出蜜语甜言
对你的爱藏在心田

就在今天

衷心地祝福你

快快乐乐直到永远


祝你生日快乐祝你生日快乐

my dearest 爸爸

The photo is taken on 2008 when sarah is having her first chinese new years

This post is specially for my daddy.Another half and hours is his birthday i know he is in his lalaland . Tomorrow will give him a call and ask his precious darling sarah to wish him a happy birthday...Unfortunately we cannot celebrate with him this year and i had give him a red packet when i was in my parent's house and Next year i will really work very hard and earn alot of money to give all my loved one a very SUPRISE birthday....I promise

Last but not least Happy birthday to my dearest daddy in my heart i really grateful to what he had done to me for this 26 years and i know i had make him disappointed again and again but he never gave up on me... i knew we will never be the same like the past year in my heart i am very sorry...i will try my best to maintain the father and daughter relationship like now or even better,i do really hope u can be happy and healthy always...In my heart u are the best father in the world and noone can represent u in my heart...Happy birthday papa

Post 80

20 43 i am very tired but than i have to wait for sarah to come back from her outing with hubby's mum...His mum brought her to hubby's cousin daughter 1st birthday held on a hotel...I hope she can enjoy herself over there...Hubby went to work on his new job and mikkiel just get to sleep after playing with me...He is very playful and active now he loves to fake cry when i left him on the room and i go out to do some housework...i mean FAKE LOUD CRY

I realise this few month i am very unlucky and not everyone understand the situation i am now but i am not going to say so detail anymore i not blaming anyone who dun understand but than dun say 风凉话 = 打消别人积极性的嘲讽话。i dun think u are really my friend u will not use this type of words in me...I am not going to state who and whatever if u are cherish the friendship than i hope u can better change the attiude toward to everyone or else one day u end up with no friend when u need someone to talk...Yesterday night i did not manage to sleep for a whole night i dun wanna to mention it here anymore cos i think i am rather used to it might be too tired till dun wish to say anymore...haiz a tired saturday sarah is coming a few minutes i going out to wait for her...Tonight sure have a very nice sleep and the weather is nice too...gd night everyone

Post 79

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hubby went to jurong point to buy subway,but i can't eat the whole things i ate half and throw away the other half.....

i am getting fatter see my face is getting rounder and rounder ...

my sexy baobei........

what precious is doing,biting is teething toy lol.........he got a new nickname is 大伯公...


mikkiel is growing taller and taller..............
The scenery that when i was standing on the balcony and having puffing session...

Sarah and mikkiel is sleeping and hubby is sleeping halfway and wake up and came out and sleeping on sofa and i am listening to his "techno"while updating. i areadi get used to it ...I am very happy that my hubby had found a new job and tomorrow is his first day of work....I know he is working very hard for this family....If he can able to work peacefully this time hope no more happening things will happen and than hope this time round he can able to find some "click" colleagues while he is working,cos time flies faster too....

Life is still the same...Everyday is doing housework and now sarah can speak more better and she can even communicate over the phone with my mum and mikkiel is improving he seldom wake up at late night asking for milk...i am getting rounder and rounder oh no i have to do something on it i am eating supper everyday since i came back from my parent's house till now...i have to do some diet plan starting on Novemebr...Recently i am watching 2 drama in mobtv one is "企鹅爸爸" and another is "一切完美" while watching had learn some life quotes that the actor and actoress had say while they are acting..I really learn alot of quotes for myself and my life from Perfect Cut...Sometime Quotes and Phrases can really useful when u are hopeless or trying to think negative way...Encourage those who wanted to go for plastic surgery can just watch this drama Perfect Cut and than decided whether u want to do it anot...I have nothing to updated tomorrow is weekends hubby is going to work so probably not going out staying at home and try to make myself busy and time flies fast too...Now staying at home is not as boring as before try to find thing to do and try to enjoy it is also a good things...Happy also a aday sad is also a day why not be happy for everyday...Very hard to do it but i am learning it everyday from the day when i watch "Perfect Cut" till now...“如果能够包容不完美,就能一切完美。”Hope i can success one day.........


Some life quotes i learn from the drama "一切完美"

“我们在同一天内，让别人看的时间，就比我们看自己的时间要多，怎么能不在乎别人的眼光？”

“人总是在要失去的时候，才发现时间的速度。”

Happy weekends to everyone........

Post 78

Hey did anybody miss me ,sarah & mikkiel ?? i doubt so...Received alot of phone call and msgs cos i have been nearly 5 days never online and some friends thought what happen to me???I am alright i just came back on saturday night from my parent's house...

Finally i have free time to updated,sarah & mikkiel is in their lala land and hubby fall asleep looking after them in our bedroom and just finish chatting with shi yin...my knee is getting better but still swollen....Saturday was my lucky day i finally tio-ed 4D is my first time striking lo my feeling is like so happy but after all i only strike $20..I really dun feel like to mention those things that happen on last wednesday and the 5 days staying in my parent's house i feel happy and the kids is enjoying...i dun feel well when reach my parent's house but than i really thanx them for really care about me and the 2 kids...My father had to work and came back help me look after sarah & mikkiel while i can take a short bath and etc....I am very thankful to my parent :)

This few days was quite busy with the cleaning and tidy up the house every morning times really flies very fast and afternoon will chat with shi yin and life is becoming back to normal....My house had installed a camera and was feeling wired but who cares life still have to go on even camera is installed hope the loan shark dun come and make any trouble....Hubby's bro was kanna beaten by the loan shark's runner and had snatch away the wallet and ic was inside they threathened him that they will go borrow loan shark using his IC on the saturday night when we reach home and he call my hubby...After all they only give his brother a kick and snatch the wallet after seeing the CCTV in the neighbour's place...I have no words to comment but this is the outcome if never return the money to the loan shark or whatever...I will never pity him also who want to hate me because i have throw egg on him on wednesday and give him a damn loud scolding infront of people corridor or writing things here go ahead i will never give a damn...i will continue to write if anything is happen hope things will come to a stop cos we are really innocent...This is what i can say...Oh my god i getting fatter i am alway hungry lol i dun know izzn't my ah yi is coming hope i can have good news this few days lol...Hubby wake up and i am going to watch the "Perfect Cut " on mobtv select.....Sayonara

Post 77

Sarah and mikkiel favourite toy

sarah is playing with herself,i think she is playing and learn to be some role herself


mikkiel is boring cos his jiejie dun wanna to play with him and he keep yelling and yelling..

Actually the whole morning till afternoon on the saturday,3 of us is enjoying cos we playing together laughing all the way teaching sarah & mikkiel singing and dancing....They take along nap after the fun...Wake up at around5 plus prepare dinner for them and feeding them halfway the tenant is about to go out and saw the paint that was splash by the "Big ear" and than i inform hubby about it and he come back a few minutes later....I never thought this thing will be happening AGAIN i tell my hubby not to interfere anymore let his brother go and settle himself or let his parent to help him settle cos whenever anything goes wrong my hubby will sure screw up by someone else and i dun like it anyway...i not siding my hubby cos he not the one who borrow loan shark and than he used my hubby name to borrow and than the stupid him also informed the loan shark my hubby changed address..This fellow (i mean hubby's brother) can be so smart to borrow money from loan shark and than he is so stupid to give the ah long the real detail and he even can give his home number to the loan shark....He is the one who borrow and my hubby will automated to be his gurrantor...Dun ask me why cos if there is stupid rules that loan shark have but than of cos they is good and nice but there is some who is cruel and because of money they can do anything they like " to ask back for money"...Frankly speaking i wanted to updated on saturday with sarah and mikkiel photo uploaded but who knows this loan shark thing will be happening...If i wanted to post so detail is very long and if i write more i afraid i will mislead people to go borrow loan shark....

I am very disencourage people who go borrow loan shark cos the interest is high and if u cannot managed to pay u will get into trouble and u also let the person who be ur gurrantor to get into trouble...Of course normal people will know borrow loan shark money is a very foolish and stupid thing but of course some people who borrow is really for some uses not like that fellow borrow and go gamble and end up who get into this mess my house,family and of cos his parent..

Today evening i am chatting with huili (my primary school friend) she contact thru facebook, she read my blog and she say to me how my life changes and she telling me last time when i was primary school i still a good and nerd (i add myself) gal and out of sudden we had lost contact for 10+++ years and i really changes alot but lucky me know how to u- turn back and now i am even a mummy of 2 kids...She tell me anything happen just think of my 2 kids cute and adorable and i might not get myself so stress and think so much..actually there is some friend did tell me this before it help when sarah and mikkiel is awake and accompany me but when they went to lala land and i will be siting in the living room and i will start think of the stress and the problem is bothering me...But i am really lucky to have someone who beside me chatting with me and worry something might me happen to me...I really can call myself lucky i alway have people beside me when something happen ...But whenever i start to think i lucky,bad thing will be happen once and another...i dun know when this problem of this loan shark case will be putting a full stop cos i not the one who talking to them and alot of things is the fellow and the fellow's parent is doing it..The loan shark will contact only the fellow and i dun think he can make it to negotiate with the loan shark i ask hubby to go over tml and talk to the loan shark and see what is happening and settle once as for all...Is a commons sense thing borrow money sure must retutrn money this very logic but is who u borrow from...Loan shark have their own way to maintain their business they also have to give salary to their worker who taking risk to help them to work...Better dun run away and return them if u really own the loan shark money how far u can go...If u dun wanna to get into uneccesary trouble dun borrow money from loanshark or be helpful to be guranttor maybe the person u help return and manage to clear the debt but when a few year later the person u help go borrow with the same loan shark and they borrow to the person and automated u will be guranttor and than the person never return u will get into trouble and u dun know when u will get in to this mess...u will even get shock so never be a gurrantor and even ur close sibling or whatever better say no than get into a stupiddebt that u didn't even spend a single cent...


Is raining outside i wanna to buy a pack of cigarettes and have some air session with the sky...Cos my balcony is facing a multi storey carpark and the sky...i am not encourage people to smoke but is my own liking...Never smoke do not pick up smoking cos smoking cause cancer and not a very good image as well but pls dun ask me why i dun quit smoking cos i will never give anyone an answer and if i quit smoking i will be happy but i had been smoking since 14 and count it many years i very happy when my friend or relatives telling me they quit smoking but i just never think of quiting smoking but just smoking less but if one day i have really no money i wiill never be so selfish to think of myself i will uses that money to buy my children things and i can just leave without cigarettes for a moment...i doesn't to lie if people ask me to quit i will just keep quiet or i give a smile cos i dun like to give empty promises....i think i really to Ar la liao...ar la mean talking alot crap.. gtg nitezz ....How u think of my blog if u think u will come back and read can help me do a small favour...( pls help me to click on my nuffangs ad if u saw it thank u so much ...