Tomorrow going back to work =)

The last day of MC

My voice is alright now left my cough n flu hope it will be better tomorrow..
In the morning bring 2 precious to school
and went jp to buy some needs..

Came back home ate my breakfast cum lunch
and do some catch up with my friends in msn..

Yesterday i tio 4D (20 dollars)
Realized at the middle of the night
when i had sleep early with 2 precious..

I'm not used to it at home alone
i done my housechores
Just have my medicine
gottat take a rest
and
go bring 2 precious back home...

The very happy Sunday

Went to see a doctor after bringing 2 precious to school..Everything was fine but i just sick,Dr Anthony gives me a 2 days mc...I'm good to eat the medicine and ate the anti-biotics to build up my system..I dun want to fall sick again..Waiting for drowsiness to come and i going for a nap...Not use to it to stay at home at this time cos i usually at work...

Saturday night====>

Sissy Crystal n Me
(Realized my action is the same lol)
hahaha
so long never take photo with her..

While sissy is doing her stuff i snap picture of myself (as usual)

Sunday

admiring my photoWatching cartoon quietly n waiting for my sistas to come.

Initially sunday have to go pray my dearest grandmother n friday going back to my parent's house cos mikkiel having mild fever so i stay at home to look after him n sarah go to my parent house..
Finally my wish to buy one aeroplane for my grandma is fulfill..
(this year i cannot go pray my grandma and ancestor)
Noone help me look after mikkiel
so sarah go with my parent
so i hope my grandmother dun mistaken
sarah is me..

The misses of her still not reduce
I do miss her
But i never dream of her anymore
I know she is fine n happy
cos my 大伯
went to pray with my parent..

Weather so good that day told by my mother..

Father fetch sarah back with my 姑妈 in the afternoon..


The tea break (baobei fav' bao)
see my big round tummy
(i ate my lunch)
Anqi bought for 2 precious=)
thank her so much

I have to thank my sistas to help me look after 2 precious and brought them to jp...Whereby my father came back again to my house...We have a clarify session with that man and his family..Whatever is only clarify those lies and misunderstanding...The divorce will still be processing ...I am very happy on that day very very very happy but there is time where i think back of the clarifying session i really pity his parent..Whatever this is all life,know who is the innocent and who is the one who can always push blame to anyone..Is kinda scary whatever what happen to them is the 2 brothers are the one who create..THAT　ＡＬＬ
Ｔｈｅ　ｆｏｏｄ　ｉ　ｃｏｏｋ　ｆｏｒ　ｍｙ　ｓｉｓｔａｓ
ａｎｄ　ｄｉｄｎ;ｔ　ｔａｋｅ　ｏｎ　ｔｈａｔ　ｄａｙ
ｔｈｅ　ｏｔｈｅｒ　ｄａｙ　ｍａｋｅ　ｈｏｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｆｏｏｄ
ａｎｄ　ｉ　ａｔｅ　ｈａｌｆ　ａ　ｂｏｗｌ..

Ａｃｔｕａｌｌｙ　ｉｓ　ｆｏｒ　ｔｈｅ　ｔｅｎａｎｔ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｔｈａｔ　ｗｈｅｎ　ｉ　ｐｕｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｆｏｏｄ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｍｉｃｒｏｗａｖｅ　ｔｏ　ｍａｋｅ　ｈｏｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｆｏｏｄ..ｔｈｅ　ｆａｍｉｌｙ　ｃａｍｅ　ｓｏ　ｉ　ｆｏｒｇｅｔ　ｔｏ　ｂｒｉｎｇ　ｏｕｔ　ｔｏ　ｌｅｔ　ｈｉｍ　ｔｏ　ｅａｔ　ａｎｄ　ｉ　ｒｅａｌｉｚｅ　ｔｈｅ　ｆｏｏｄ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｍｉｃｒｏｗａｖｅ　ｈｅ　ｈａｄ　ａｒｅａｄｉ　ａｔｅ..

Ｈｏｐｅ　３１ｓｔ　ｉ　ｃａｎ　ｈｅａｒ　ｇｏｏｄ　ｎｅｗｓ　ｆｒｏｍ　ｔｈｅｍ..＝)

Ｉ　ａｍ　ｌｕｃｋｙ　ｔｏ　ｈａｖｅ　ｍａｎｙ　ｐｅｏｐｌｅ　ｎｉｃｅ　ａｒｏｕｎｄ　ｈｅｌｐｉｎｇ　ｍｅ　ａｎｄ　ｔｈｅ　ｃｈｉｌｄｒｅｎ　ａｎｄ　ｍｙ　ｐａｒｅｎｔ　ｎｏ　ｍａｔｔｅｒ　ｈｏｗ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｂｅ　ｗｉｔｈ　ｍｅ,ｈｏｗ　ｉ　ａｍ　ｉ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｖｅｒｙ　ｇｒａｔｅｆｕｌ　ｔｏ　ｗｈａｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｇｏｄ　ｇｉｖｅｎ　ｍｅ..

Ａ　ｃｈａｎｃｅ to be rebellion　Ａ　ｃｈａｎｃｅ　ｔｏ　make nice friends A chanceｉｎｔｏ　ａ　ｍａｒｒｉａｇｅ　Ａ　ｃｈａｎｃｅ　ｔｏ　ｌｅｔ　ｍｅ　ｂｅ　ａ　ｍｏｔｈｅｒ　ｏｆ　ｍｙ　２　ｐｒｅｃｉｏｕｓ　ｎ　Ａ　ｃｈａｎｃｅ　ｔｏ　ｌｅｔ　ｍｅ　ｂｅ　ｍｙ　ｐａｒｅｎｔ'ｓ　ｄａｕｇｈｔｅｒ.
A chance to let me know a feeling of losing a person i treasure.
All this year i never waste my life,i LOSＥ　ａ　ｌｏｔ　ｉ　ｇａｉｎ　ａｌｏｔ..
Ｍｙ　ｐａｒｅｎｔ　ｎｅｖｅｒ　ｇｉｖｅｎ　ｍｅ　ｕｐ
ｅｖｅｎ　ｈｏｗ　ｉ　ｍａｋｅ　ｔｈｅｍ　ｄｉｓａｐｐｏｉｎｔｅｄ..
　A　ｃｈａｎｃｅ
ｉ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｆａｌｌ　ｄｏｗｎ
Ｊｕｓｔ　ａ　ｃｈａｎｃｅ　ｔｏ　ｍａｎａｇｅ　ｍｙｓｅｌｆ　ｔｏ　ｓｔａｎｄ　ｕｐ
ｂｙ　
ｆｒｉｅｎｄｓ,ｒｅｌａｔｉｖｅ
ａｎｄ　
ＭＹ PARENTs...

Ｓｏｒｒｙ　ｆｏｒ　ｔｈｅ　ｌｏｎｇ　ｐｏｓｔ　ｃｏｓ　ｉ　ｔｈｉｎｋ　ｉ　ｗｉｌｌ　ｂｅ　ｕｐｄａｔｉｎｇ　ａ　ｗｅｅｋ　ｏｎｃｅ　ｎｏｗ　ａｓ　ｒｅｇｕｌａｒ　ａｓ　ｔｈｅ　ｐａｓｔ..Ｉ　ａｍ　ｇｏｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｔｕｒｎ　ｍｙｓｅｌｆ　ｔｏ　ｆｕｌｌ　ｔｉｍｅ　ｆｏｒ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｃｏｍｐａｎｙ　ｉ　ｍａｋｅ　ｓｕｒｅ　ｉ　ｗｏｒｋ　ｈａｒｄ　ｅａｒｎ　ｍｏｒｅ　ｍｏｎｅｙ...Ｉ　ｗａｎｔ　ｔｏ　ｌｅｔ　ｔｈｅ　ｍｙ　ｆａｍｉｌｙ　ｔｏ　ｂｅ　ｈａｐｐｙ　ａｎｄ　ｃａｎ　ｂｒｉｎｇ　ｔｈｅｍ　ｏｕｔ　ｏｃｃａｓｉｏｎａｌｌｙ　ｔｏ　ｌｅｔ　ｍｙ　ｆａｍｉｌｙ　ｈａｐｐｙ
Ｔｒｅａｓｕｒｅ　ｅｖｅｒｙｔｈｉｎｇ　ｉ　ｈａｖｅ..
Ｉ　ｔｒｅａｕｒｅ　ｍｙ　ｆａｍｉｌｙ,ｍｙ　ｆｒｉｅｎｄｓｈｉｐ　ａｎｄ　ｅｖｅｒｙｏｎｅ..
Ｉ　ｈａｖｅ　ｔｏ
Ｉ　ｄｕｎ　ｗａｎｔ　ｗａｉｔ　ｆｏｒ　ｒｅｇｒｅｔ　ｔｈａｎ　ｉ　ｓｔａｒｔ　ｔｏ　ｒｅｇｒｅｔ..
Ｔｒｅａｓｕｒｅ　ｉｓ　ｔｈｅ　ｗｏｒｄ...

Excursion for 2 precious (Marina Barrage)

Alarm rang at 6:45am i dragged myself up @ 7 20 am and prepared for 2 precious n i am off we go to school..On the way we meet Mummy crystal and sweetie shermie=====>tada

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.Mummy crystal is pushing Shermie=)
3 of them ate biscuit when we push them to school =)



Reach the school outside =)

Find out mikkiel poopoo so i have to help him to change the pamper inside the school..
After that went to Singapore Pool
Buying TOTO for Ann n myself
afterthat saw many children was at 3 level so
we decided to see our children and
follow them to the destination to take the bus..

baobei n her classmatePrecious and his classmate
TUTU TRAIN
to the destination to take the bus..wow so many children waiting for bus to
MARINA BARRAGE =)


I off to work ,mummy crystal went home n get ready to work..
Wat a wonderful morning
and
today work was great
went to fetch 2 precious
with happy feedback=)
Sarah was well behaved
and mikkiel was well behaved with holding hand with his teacher ZEILA..

Although i hate today date but i love the day today
I doubt my 2 precious love too..
Both are real tired
off to bed @ 10pm..

Have done half my housechores
I hope i can earn more money
really
many many many $$$$$$$
to clear off my debtsss..

When can i have DEBT free life..
hmmmm... i know will not be long..
When i have free of DEBT
i will happily proud
TO SAY
I FREE OF DEBT
and
I CLEAR ALL MY BILLS
and
I PAY OFF MY 2 precious accumulate school fees
by that IRRESPONSIBLE MAN..
I'm alright to pay for my 2 precious
just that he the one who owns that school fees..
i am not so unwillingly to pay for his part
who he go up to the school to promised the teacher
HE WILL PAY...

Whatever i am absolutely alright
JUST LET ME GRUMBLE
&**(&#%(*$((%)_$(..

真人真事

２００７年，结婚再生了我的女儿跟孩子的爸爸的家人一起住，就因经发生很多事情，就搬去应经买了一年多的房子住。。以为就可以过小小一家四口开心的日子。他也没有稳定的工作，孩子生病没钱看医生，还是没钱缴家的费用每次都是我去跟朋友和亲戚借钱。。可是不到一年，就放生他的爸爸叫他找大耳窿借钱，起初还想不用紧，以为是他的爸爸，可是那时是因为车的分期付款不能还，他就当了他爸爸的担保人，就是把钱给他的弟弟转给大耳窿，弟弟把钱去赌，就是在我生了儿子不久就发生第一次大耳窿来写。。也搞不懂明知孩子已经有了家庭，也没听过爸爸叫孩子找大耳窿的？就已为过了这次就没有了。。

可是就是在他要去ｒｅｓｅｒｖｉｓｔ　九月　２００９的时候，就发生阿窿写Ｏ$Ｐ$在电梯。。。。还跟他妈妈的朋友借钱还用我跟他哥哥的名字借钱，我是真的很无辜，那时我和他就吵架为了他的弟弟得事。。。就说不在跟他弟弟联络。。就没事了。。到了十月阿窿又来可是是泼漆，我真不能忍了，一起又一起，我就说要跟他离婚。。他父母就来说，叫我原谅他。。钱已经还清了，就原谅了他。。。。我一直觉得他的妈妈很惨，就叫他不要在艮他妈妈拿钱。。他的妈妈的金山以经给他和他的弟弟还赌债。。谎一个又一个在一个，这些都是我突然间才知道的。。。人生可以有多少个突然发生的事？？？？我以为就没事了。。

２０１０　八月我的婆婆突然跌倒伤得很严重，我的婆婆是世界第二个人疼我的人，就在那次，婆婆就没醒来了。。。当婆婆过世不久他就给我放先他跟他的弟弟联络，以为当这两个兄弟在一起，一定没好事。。婆婆还没到１００天，在十月就突然发生阿窿在我家的墙壁写，这次跟2009不一样的是新的阿窿，这次我亲知他给阿窿，才知道他在我婆婆还没过世就跟他的弟弟一起赌球，输钱去借阿窿，还跟我说是帮他的弟弟做担保人。。做他的家人很惨的，这次我就不再心软，我就去申请离婚，他就叫我的干姐姐来跟我我说情，我就在为了孩子就在给他一个最后的机会我还把我申请离婚的证件给他看，希望他会真得去努力去做人，真惜这个最后我很不想给的一个机会。。最后还在１２月２日，突然阿窿又来泼漆，这次的突然我真的贲愧了。我还没把我自己的婆婆突然离开的心情调式好就发生一二连三这种事。。我真的好累，我对他已经没有这么好说的，我赶他出这个家，我就真的生病了，真的在一个家庭不管是爸爸还是妈妈是个赌还是毒，会真的害了无辜的人。。当我趁经在年轻的时后，我也犯了错，我也受了我的惩罚。从新开始，有了一个家又被一个他差点就让我的孩子没了妈妈。。又在十二月的时候，发现他跟　ｐｒｉｖａｔｅ　ｌｏａｎｅｒ　借钱，还是还赌球输的钱，他还借了好多个公司。。。一二在的上来敲门，把孩子都吓了好几次，孩子的爸爸已经不住在这个家。。。我已经对他和他的家人很失望，两年多了事情还是没有解决。。。。赌是一会事，他以经把不该是人做的都做了。。连我的同事都决的我们两个本来是好好的，当事情没有发生的时候就，我还是在家顾两个孩子到今年六月才去做兼职。。

我应经再伸请离婚，只想要个平静的生活好好跟孩子一起过。。。希望大耳窿可以去他父母的家找他和他的弟弟，。。谢谢因为今天阿窿又来泼漆。。。

同一片蓝天

曲:阿牛词:阿牛 黎淑婷

有的人喜欢走弯弯曲曲的路
有的人喜欢一路直到尽头
有人喜欢看风景
有人只顾赶路
多少人会不小心半途迷了路
同一片蓝天
活在抉择与取舍的边缘
用生命有限的时间
去爱多你一点
同一片蓝天
爱恨交错在同一个点
互相的依附与牵绊
谁和谁一起飞越这片天

哭

歌手：阿牛

以前我看到朋友哭我很羡慕
可是我怎么逗我自己怎么弄我自己
我的眼泪都流不出
总觉得能够哭的朋友都很幸福
能够把满的无奈满腔的痛苦
让泪水带走最苦是泪水哽在心头
流不出就象要爱却不懂怎么去爱
自己哭过后才明白流过泪的眼睛

将生命看得更清楚
只有真正懂得付出的人
才懂得何为哭为何哭
再坚强的心偶尔也会脆弱
心会疼也也会感动
只有曾经真心付出的人
泪水要记得为真心保留
眼泪别白白地流

A WON-DER-FUL SATURDAY =)

Brought 2 precious to school is a routine every weekday
wednesday was anightmare
when after my work i went to fetch 2 precious n
i saw sarah was totally different
face was so bloated eye was so mini and
her double eyelids cannot been seen at all..
Brought her to clinic with my sissy
and she help me look after mikkiel...
Doctor say sarah is having food allergy..
The medicine was so effective
came home
sarah complain everywhere ITCH..
apply the aloe vera gel n ease her ITCHNESS...

thank sissy help me look after them so i can have a nice bath after a shock and sweat...

Didnt went to work the other day stay at home and look after her..

sarah 's eye taken by my sissy

Brought her to the clinic to take MC
to show my company
(yup part time also need MC to show to my COMPANY)

Evening bring baobei to go fetch mikkiel....
Thank god that sarah had a fast recovery from her food allergy

i can go to work on friday.
see baobei is perfectly alright =)

.
i have the responsible to take care of them
when they are sick
even they are not well
i have the responsible for their everything....
Although now i cannot go anywhere like i used to
maybe i have less time with
my friend n sissy..
I brought them to this world
is let them have a life with happiness
just like i was a children..
Although i not rich
but i will not give them a life
like what i having for that 3 years plus..
Simple also can be happy
Yes they might be young NOW
doesn't mean they will not be affected..

2 precious is not toy
when u want feel like seeing them
u say u love them
when u doesn't want them
u push them to the risk that u as a children
dun even experience urself..

whatever that man had does will not be affect us much at all...
OUR life still have to go on
with or without THAT MAN..



Here our weekend BEGINs..


Precious after bath
(very hard to take precious picture nowadays)

Me @ workplace
ME having my own free time
FACE SWOLLEN DUE TO MY TEETH INFECTION lol..
VERY PAIN
EATING THE ANTIBIOTICS & PANADOL..

This 3 nail polish was my first time in my life
i bought
never bought a nail polish before..
(the very first time last year june
if i not wrong going out with Crystal & Delphine)the other 8
is i bought from my workplace..
grumble grumble grumble
also work @ that company for 7 to 8 month lol...
sometime very reluctant to buy their items
BUT sometime no choice
I WORK TILL 10 to 6
after work go straight to 2 precious school
to fetch them..
I am happy with my life
but sometime abit tired
COS
NOT ENOUGH SLEEP...
Was tidy up my computer desk today
so take all nail polish out n take photo lol...

Will be more updated when i free
n more about 2 precious..
HP CAMERA IS HAYWIRE
nowadays
still have to used
till one day i clear my debt
than i will buy a hp for myself
and more thingy for my 2 precious
provided
I CLEAR OFF MY DEBT...

PLEASE RESPECT MY DECISION
NOONE WILL KNOW THE FEELING
ONLY THOSE WHO
GET IT
WILL KNOW IT..

Our tea time
Chocolate bun
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.
.
still not enough

2 precious eating biscuit and milk...

Precious was still not 2 year old (above photo)see now tall n very active

dun know what wrong with my right arm
was swollen like a hill..

Weekend will be over great time cos
we spent time together
=)
brought them to playground
let them enjoy
be back again

♥ It friday again =) ♥

Before i updated this is the bloody another case of harass by loan shark

now not my house is my neighbour wall n door kanna splash
BLOODY HELL SHIT..
TOLD THAT IRRESPONSIBLE MAN TO GO APOLOGISED TO THE NEIGHBOUR HIMSELF..
I DOUBT HE HAvent DO SO
COS HE IS BUSYING BORROW LOAN SHARK AGAIN
WITH HIS FATHER N BROTHER...
(THREATENING BY LOAN SHARK IN NOT END YET)

On the 24 february went back to my parent house..On tuesday mikkiel start to have fever at night when my friend was still around..He was so hot when i touch his forehead,all thanks to my forget-ful-ness or someone had taken away my thermometer so i didn't know how high is he..Give him a bullet on his ass cos he is very very hot and 5ml fever syrup..thanx god fever went down, i doubt is the phelgm precious have cause him to be like this..Brought him to polyclinic Next day,nurse help him to measure to temperature is 38.3 and she arrange for mikkiel to see the doctor faster...Doctor just ask a few question and ask me to go take medicine and went back home after that..I didn't make the payment cos the queue was bloody long and the pram cannot even go in to the queue..I bought a mouth thermometer so i can measure mikkiel fever..Precious was having fever during night was really shocked me,look after him carefully and thursday brought 2 precious back to my parent house ,father came and fetch me...1st day at my parent house was alright,2nd night mikkiel start to fever again and went i measure is 38.7 and he is shivering n shaking..Faster carry him and told my mummy i bring him to see a doctor..My mum ask my father wake up and Bring us to Serangoon North 24 clinic,didn;t wait very long was my turn..Doctor say mikkiel still look active so prescribe some strong medicine for him n of cause some medicine to reduce is phelgm...Of cos i have to look after him carefully and luckily i not that type of sleep like a pig if not on the 3rd day middle of the night mikkiel is having febrile fits and father fetch us to kkh and i didn't told the doctor to do x-ray for mikkiel cos i think it might be lung infection causing by his phelgm so he having fever on and off..But the doctor say she used the scope to hear the lung is CLEAR so bring us to the observation and ask me to sponge him again n again..His fever is up to40'c i was really shocked..I never saw a 40'c temperature on a thermometer before i was very worry about mikkiel and the same time i feel so helpless..Whenever i sponge him he will cry very loudly..He loves to bath and saw him crying like that feel so pain..No choice have let the temperature down first,Luckily 5am the fever had drop till 38.0c...Father went to take the medicine n insisted to make the payment for me when the cashier say dun need to make any payment..So went back home with a QUESTION MARK...

Have to thank my parent to help me along the ways,when i needed a hand to help,if not i dun know what can it be when i was alone at home with 2 precious..thank god for blessing for us mummy say have to look after mikkiel carefully cos she have been a babysitter so long never seen a children had fits before..Luckily i have a habit to touch my children forehead before i sleep..if not or if i was not beside mikkiel on that day i dun know what will it be..





Another day,brother and sister in law brought my parent n 3 of us to have lunch n dim sum and City Hall Royal Park Hotel for my mummy's birthday..After that father fetch us back our home sweet home..

Sunday night mikkiel is getting better but still not totally recovered...I have sleepless night for a few night.I have to take care of mikkiel and feed him water cos scared he is too dehydrated cos of his fever and medicine he taken..But anyway he is recovered after that have to thank mikkiel's teacher too helping me to feed him medicine and observe him so that i can go to work and earn money ..I have no choice i have to find a babysitter to look after them before i go look for a FULL TIME JOB...

Today is Friday
2 precious is asleep done a little bit of update..
When children is having FEVER
CANNOT PLAY PLAY..
THANK GOD FOR BLESSING EVERYONE WITH GOOD HEALTH..=)