Post 76

First of all i wonder to really to say thank my parent who came down immediately and even ask anything they can help...My parent brought sarah back home on the same day..Even thought how the paint is clear and the mess that "BIG EAR" had done will never wash away the problem that brainless jerk had done....

"Thing still not settle yet"

The door not still not paint with a new colour and the paints have been bought by that jerk 's mother...The smell of the paint stay for a couple of days imagine staying at home and smell that paint will make a person gone crazy..A simple home let this jerk of my hubby make until a home not like a home..Family not like a Family...


This is because a stubborn people alway never listen to people advice and never ever learn from his mistake and we get involved and because we have to suffer and than these people still can throw temper to me and say whatever he done is because of this family..I am appreciated somethings that this person done but i just never agreed what decision is make cos he never wants to listen to people advice.You will never think how u treat me and u want people to understand u...Did u ever want to understand how i feel...Chances given to u is to cherish and not take for advantages...U will get breakdown than what about me...Selfish will never lead u to anywhere but just lead to a loner life...u are enough of everything but than i not....i never been telling once years by years how many time i had been keep telling u and the msg i sent u u never put it in ur mind dun say ur heart...U dun blame people dun care when u are sick cos u alway put what u think in ur mind...U dun like people to treat u like this than u dun treat people like this, In this world there is no much people like u,behaving like this and there is me who give u chances by chances..Mistake is made by u is not u to judge how big or small this mistake is...U dun like this life that wat god gives u i think there is alot of people wanted cos they just one a chance to live cos they know they had done really wrong but u....U alway say with ur word promise with ur word but u will just do it for awhile and changed to be ur own self within a few days or months...Life is not going to alway so lucky u made mistake people will forgive u and the problem is u given plenty of chance but u never take it seriously....u dun want people to give up on u,u show to me u can do it ...Once everything is gone u dun come and beg cos whenever u done wrong i need tell u before,dun regret when things have gone life only live once and noone wants to live this type of life forever..i dun care u get what i mean u want a peace life doesn't mean ur mouth to say and alway does this type of happening things and than u can accept how i treat u and u start ur temper and u let me see how u treasure ...When decison is made i will never look back on u AGAIN....Dun blame me for being so cruel to u cos when u start to treat me badly u will never think how nice and good i treating u and when u need a person i am beside u ..i need a people who have big hearted to accept what i had throw and endure my anger and i never throw temper anyhow u never made mistake i will never think of finding fault dun say quarrel..i dun care how u treat people outside i just want u dun treat me like other...Stop always thinking on ur own way and life will be better...u want to have a happy family not by saying is how to make the family to be happy not creating trouble and problem and come back and show temper to ur own family...U realised this family is important and there is no more chance given is too late cos u made everything to turn another way...u dun think u are blessed i have nothing much to say...u are consider lucky what u had done in the past and god protect u for no reason and u dun want to cherish when it gones u will never get it back no matter how u do to take it back...hope when u read at this post u will change for ur own sake if not u will lose what u treasure very soon...

I need time to forget everything had happen this few days,an advice dun ever look out for loan shark when u have financial problem or u are addicted into gamble and need money to win back the money u lose .When borrow money is very easy but when u owned them and never return this is what that had happen to our house will happen to u...But than noone in my house borrow money from loan shark but just that my hubby is lucky to have a real blooded brother can do anything for money...

THE WORST THING I NEVER MET IN MY LIFE

THE PICTURE BELOW IS NOT COPY FROM ANYWHERE IS MY HOUSE DOOR

All thank to my hubby's brother ...My whole house has that paint smell NOW ...

Post 75

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see the weather today can wash clothes and let the sun to dry the clothes and kill the bacteria....


thurday night 3 am mikkiel wake up and want me to accomapany him * so bad right*



than he start playing with his toys in the playpen and he went back to sleep at 4 plus ...

when i was scrubbing the living room floor mikkiel is playing with the water and walking here and there

Got see my shiny floor after scrub i use the mop the dry the floor incase *i fall down again*

mikkiel is seacrhing for the toy box and sarah is inspecting the table izzn't clean anot...hahahaafter finish my household i still can take a few picture of myself...:)

Oh is friday again..Time flies very fast now is areadi mid - October...10 month passes very fast i am still the same old me,looking after sarah & mikkiel and a temporary housewife...But of course the day goes by alot of things is different and unexpected things is always happening...Of course there is always some sweet and happy memories to be keep in my mind...People come and goes Life is very unpredictable and fragile.Every person point of view is different and the expectation of everything is also not the same....i always want a changes of myself but when i look back of myself i dun know what had really gone wrong...Is i the one need a changes or the people surround me need a changes...Sometimes they can be so good to u and next minutes they can talk to u like u own them a million...when they need u they say thing that can even make u fly but when they doesn't need u they can say thing to make u feel like the rest of the day is not right...What happen to this little world???People that i meet can be good at time i believe there is still alot of good people doing good deeds..But how many people is exist in this world...i ask myself what good deed had i done recently i can't even answer myself....My life now is always keep grumbling and full of complaint and sometime i ask myself what i had do wrong....Some friends knowing i staying at home and dun need to go out and work they say my life is great...How tired looking after 2 kids and maintain the house clean and neat and cook and wash every single day...i not tai-tai having high tea in hotel or having brunch at what restaurant...Although i always chatting with friend doesn't mean my hand is not moving...Of course i have free time but how much free time i have...I can spent the time on the computer and the phone and playing with the kids busy doing housework what else can i do....i have alot of wishes in my mind but when can it come true..a day, a month, a year or will never come true...i am not negative thinking people but sometime is hard not to think negative way...Too contradicting also not a good thingss....

When i have a happy life i choose a wrong path but when i decided to start a new life but life cannot goes back to the same and obstacles by obstacles i only can accept and face the fact i dun want to be a tortoise to hide inside the shell...

Today i am busy with the housework ,my first time scrubbing the living room floor it look shinny after i dry the floor with the mop...Sarah & Mikkiel is enjoying when i was doing housechores dun know what both of them is thinking but they loves to follow me where i go but sometime i feel irritate cos mikkiel's walker is blocking my way...but afterall they are still my everything...my house phone keep ringing but when pick up noone is speaking i think this few days i have a few this type of calls lol...Prank call i used to it but is damn noise when my phone is keep ringing lol....i close the switch of the hp and continue my housechores....Evening hubby came back at 7 plus and his friend bought me durian...he never rest and we have dinner together with the kids,never have a quiet and peace dinner cos while we eating mikkiel will keep yelling asking us to give him some and sarah will keep saying mum mum...i areadi get used to it...hubby went to work again and never take any rest hope he will not sleep while working..Sunday there will be unexpected guest is coming over to my house and actually shiyim is bring Caen over to our house have to cancel and ask her to bring Caen some another day all because to that nice man problem lol...Hope after sunday everything will become normal and lead our simple and happy life and no more problem is coming..............So my parent,hubby and all my friend can stop listen to my grumble and complain anymore:)

Post 74

yesterday,mikkiel stay awake 12 am plus and nothing to do so take some photo of him

doing some things he usually at home,hubby was sick and sleeping on the sofa mikkiel go and put his hair..
after my chasing he start to moved to the computer table and wanted to take my photo ablum and played with it...mikkiel seem to be very busy taken my things here and there....


after mikkiel went to sleep , i was very tired but cannot get to sleep *see my haggard face*



Yesterday night,hubby never went to work at night cos he is sick cos due to working 18 hours plus a day (machine also will spoil dun say human being)..Poor hubby and than all thank to that jerk my hubby throw a very big temper and than my ash try water was plush out and the computer table is full of ash and water....i have to clear it and than i tell my hubby why must throw temper and than we the one who suffer ignored him awhile and he apologised to me and ask me to understand him...i can understand him but i just cannot stand that jerk and i have enough of what he doing and sms him...he even make conflict between my hubby and his father...How terrible he is???all because of his stupid debt for what than however this is not putting a full stop at all...he is getting bad to worse to worst i wonder how this jerk can still living in this world with " the kind of feeling that nothing have gone wrong and still can give attuide" i am really think of give two tight slap but from thing happen until now i still never see him appear in my house but his parent...haiz just caming here to grumble and vent my little anger here cos i think i used to it anyway must thank this jerk for giving me such "peaceful life"....go and watch my baby bonus @ mob tv i am waiting for sunday to come and hope i can get a mic and say things clear and loud...Anyone want to sponsor me a microphone and a recorder????? End my word with :) cos i want to strike 4D and toto i cannot be angry from 18 october onwards

Post 73

i back to updated just finish chatting with shiyin and the kids is still in their afternoon nap so i shall updated....Saturday and sunday we spent our time at home due to we are very budgeting,only went out on sunday to get our grocery at night and when we come home realised mikkiel's booties was lost on the way we going home...hubby went out to settle that jerk things and i stay at home look after sarah and mikkiel and recently mikkiel is abit to cranky keep on crying when he can't see me and he keep even cry in the room while i was in the kitchen washing his milk bottles and i was chatting with shiyin and she even can hear his sound lol..Especially when the sleeping times he will keep crying and yelling when he cannot see me and i was laying on my bed i have to sit up and he see me he will stop his fake cry and smile again...*headache* been few nights i never sleep properly...I hope he can be better when the day goes by :)

Monday, was doing housechores and surfing the net after finished cooking porridge...The day was not very good i feel sick out of sudden and was dizzy and having fever suddenly and it had been few months never happen this out of sudden sickness but it come back again..i quickly went to my bed lay down and relax and ate 2 panadol...I never feel better and my throat was dry and pain think i talk to much recently and ate too much fried food...Hubby cames back and he help me look after sarah & mikkiel and i take some rest cos evening we will be going to PAP to see MP...Evening prepared and went to PAP and wow there alot of people inside lol hubby go register and i wait outside with sarah & mikkiel...hubby register and come out and he say have to wait for 25 mins and go in and watch the "wheel of fortune" while waiting ( very long never see this variety show) ...after 40 mins finally our turn, and this is our FIRST TIME seeing the MP lol but the person who help us maybe is the volunteer or the assistant of the MP...hubby was the one who interact with her and than tell her the whole things and she still can't get the meaning and have the say and say until she can understand...we went to see the MP is because our conservancy bill and we have a few month never pay and they charged us $400 plus and the bill is $30 plus a month lol and we got 4 month plus never pay so it too much even thought the town council charge us the lawyer fees and the late payment so we want the MP to help us see can write letter to them to waived the lawyer fees and late payment anot...i hear my hubby keep repeating why we came and want the MP to help and than lastly the miss of help us FINALLY understand...we even ask her about the childcare fees and the subsidize and see whether they can help us find one childcare and infant care together so i can go out and work and my friend say the MP will help and the government is enocourage the mummy to go out and work RIGHT...Than we never get the answer we want she telling us how expensive the childcare can be and than not worth it to bring 2 kids to the childcare and i go out and work cos the fees will come up to alot and it will increase our expenses...This is my first time seeing MP and of cos we will never see the real MPs we will only get to see the assistant i think is our luck to see that assistant of our MPs but we saw the real MPs who in charge of our divison she is doing rounding she is playing with sarah & mikkiel for a while and she go for more rounding and i saw alot of people walk here and there actually i dun know she is our MPs after i saw the poster infront of me and state the MPs photo and the name and look exactly the woman who just walk pass me and play with the kids...After 30 mins we left so i can just simply put going out and work aside and be my temporary housewife and look after sarah & mikkiel first...i thought i can go out and work to increase our income so i will not see hubby working 2 jobs and he can just work one stable job will do...We will not be so tight and financial will be more flexible and we can have our own saving and not worry about the bills and etc............Reached home and rest hubby look after the kids...

Tuesday, i feel better and do my housechores and look after the kids and chatting with shiyin and godsis cos monday never chat with them seemed to be alot to talk and while talking i become from no strength to becoming better and better (after the sweat thanks to the hot weather) and thanks of my caring hubby and the care and concern friend shiyin and godsis spent the time chatting i offically well at night but due to mikkiel cranky at time i still cannot get to sleep well but on and off wake up to make milk for him...

Wednesday,life is still the same do the same thingsand finally have time to blog normally i will updated at night but i think the chance to updated at night will be lesser cos mikkiel cannot see me he cannot get to sleep so i have to stay inside my room to look after him....Hubby came back and his turn to be sick cos working too many hours and must force him to go see doctor...

Post 72

1232am just finished conversation with one of my ex colleague....We sound so happy when we listen to both voices i never expect she will contact me cos we been lose contact for years.....She is going to be a mummy soon...Forget to congrates her on the phone we chat about 1 and half hours we keep talking about the past when we working together and remind me alot of happy memories both of us have...She asked me why suddenly i never give any notice and just left the job like this but is not my choice is because i have to go somewhere that to make me to be a better person i called it a heavenly place...We just lose contact just like this for a few years and happen she just get to know my new contact from one of my friend...She tell me she is very worry about me but just that she doesn't know who to contact to find me at the day i just disappear suddenly without a notice....Yesterday she just bump one of my friend and she tell me how she get my contact and i was like she really treasure our friendship...i did try to get her contact from some ex colleagues but they give me the contact is no longer in use.. we had about 3 years plus never contact but we have alot of things to talk but too bad she is living in malayasia so she has to putted down after a hours plus conversation...after the one hours plus conversation the blur me keep toking and listen to what xiaoxiao say but than i forget to get her contact but she say she will be calling me again so i will wait....After hanging the phone my mood is like so happy cos can contact back a friend who lose contact for years the feeling is like "i dun know how to described"...i just feeling happy now...


i have nothing to updated...my life routine is the same, looking after sarah and mikkiel ,doing housechores, surfing the net and chatting with friend over the phone....i spent most of the time on the phone in the afternoon chatting with shiyin our topics like will never ended like that...i am happy to know her and my hubby say i am lucky can find a new friend and click so well...he thought we been friend for years but after i tell him how we know each other he tell me i also lucky cos where got people exchange blog link and than msn and than can be so good ones..hubby even know what time to what time i will be toking to which friend lol sometime he is alway saying i always using the phone but than when he is surfing the net he also listen to what my friend and i is toking lo he also add a comment sometime...i seldom saw him using the phone at home la not he no friend cos when got man and another man got so much to talk...agree is very late liao i am going to my lalalala land nitesssssssssss..............

Post 71

taken @ polyclinic i just love take sarah and mikkiel having the same reaction look so cute :)




Guess who cover my the other eye ?

tada is mikkkiel lolhe will capture by me cos he loved to move here and there lol




sarah smile so sweet lol

Jiejie and didiEnjoy the photo :)

Early in the morning,i wake up to made porridge for sarah and mikkiel (lunch) cos later we going to polyclinic for mikkiel's hearing test after that when we reach home both of them can have their lunch..... Hubby reach home @ 9 plus and follow by sarah had wake up and feed and bath her and mikkiel is still sleeping carry him out from the playpen he still look abit sleeping but no choice have to bath and feed him...Prepared and off we go take a cab to polyclinic and today polyclinic is not that pack like the previous time...We waited for a few minutes and is our turn and as usual the nurse ask alot of question and after that began the hearing test and mikkiel pass the test and than take his weight and height and head circumference...His weight was 9.4kg and height is 70cm and the head cirucmference is 44.5cm..The nurse say mikkiel is slight overweight and the nurse say is alright when he start to grow taller the weight will start to decrease...After that make our appointment and off we go home...

Reach home,hubby go to work again and mikkiel is sleeping and i feed sarah with porridge and she take her nap and start to surf net and as usual chat with shiyin....Today is abit tired cos i wake up early and rush here and there...Haiz now i am watching BABY BONUS in mio tv and was slightly addicted to it every week will watch 5 epsiodes in one day cos only have 5 epsidoes to watch lol...The baby in that show was so adorable and cute but some of my friend say why never ask mikkiel go act...aiya every baby and children is cute and adorable who act also the same...Just now the three of us playing until very happy and sarah and mikkiel now is in their lala land and i gonna to go watch and than go to bed before 1 am..Tomorrow is another day hope it will be a better day :)

POst 71

5 october 2009

today i wake up early to prepare the food for the family and than do the housechores and follow by wake hubby up to go work and chit chat with shiyin...From today onward from monday to saturday evening i will be alone with sarah & mikkiel cos hubby is busy working 2 jobs see him like that abit heartpain i ask him why he want to work two jobs cos he say he just want us to have a better life...:) tml morning have to bring mikkiel to polyclinic for his hearing check up and i want to change my sleeping rountine i am going to sleep before 1 am every night let hope i can do it...:)


* i also wanna to thank all my dear friend who listen to my grumble and complaint for this few days if dun have ur listening ear i think i cannot hold till now and alway think day after day will be better but i think is only for a moment BUT I MUST BE STRONG to beat those monster who want to see my family to split..especially that jerk thank to made us united hope u can run as far as u can better dun come back and let me look down on u :)




On 4 october 2009


Sunday went to jurong point to buy some grocery for this week and pay the bill....i bought myself hairdye and dye myself @ night and i am very satisfied of my new hair colour :) and save money and time too dun need to wait in the salon and can do it myself...:)






中秋節快樂⃡('.') ͋
On 3 october 2009

Wake up in the morning find out my neck was fractured every here and there is with pain and Is mooncake festival i didn't go anywhere,sharmaine & her bf came and look for us and follow by godsis in the late afternoon watch a hongkong show and chitchat awhile catch up abit...The photo show how enjoy we are but godsis left first cos she has to go meet cassandra in sembawang but also appreciate she come find me cos she come from amk to boon lay...after that sharmaine & her bf left about 8pm...The weather is raining so did not bring sarah and mikkiel out...



On 2nd October 2009


I cannot remember what had done cos i fall down on the floor while the floor is wet and after that i find out my left head with a "baluku" i start to anyhow talk after my fall but i only remember shiyin help me to change my blogskin and help me to reorganise the things...A nice and helpful friend where to find...:)

Thank gal for helping to change my blogskin and waste alot of ur time i like it so much :)

Shiyin's hubby and their precious Caen

On 1st october

Shiyin and her precious Caen come and look for us and really appreciate cos she has to come from tampines to boon lay....Actually wanted to meet her at Jurong point but when i put sarah in the pram and put mikkiel in the carrier but walking a few block i dun think i cannot make it cos i am using one hand to push sarah and other hand to hold mikkiel back i cannot even push the pram properly so call up shiyin to take cab here...ABout a few minutes,Shiyin and Caen arrived with a cab but the taxi uncle is so "helpful" lol i did not see him helping shiyin to take the pram out and sit inside the cab and than he didn't even drive shiyin to the exactly place to alighted lol...Brought her up to my house and heat up the porridge and than shiyin feed Caen and i feed mikkiel and chit chat here and there..We managed to chit chat alot and in the evening sarah than start to play with Caen and mikkiel...3 kids is playing together and we can manage to talk more but time is getting shorter cos Shiyin and Caen is going back home....we take cab to jurong point while waiting for cab we take a few minutes to hire a cab lol cos i think some uncle think very trouble some lol cos we got 2 pram with Caen and sarah and a carrier with mikkiel but finally a nice uncle stop the cab and even help up to take the pram in the booth....Reached jurong point waited for hubby and walk around jurong point and send shiyin and Caen to MRT station...Was a great day but forget to take photo lol but will remember when we meet out the next time...:)