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Was reading thru the blog i had updated before..Had been updating since 2006 till now..Can really see that i love to wrote a very long post everytime...Dun know how to come to straight point at time...No matter what who cares...

Since my 嬷嬷 left us and go to another happy world,i had once wanted to stop updating...I dun know why i just no mood to update...I think i have been very understanding to what this world is like how people change how people treat me as and how people is so realistic at TIMES...I choose to forgive and forget but STILL NOT ENOUGH...But when my MARRIAGE had really cannot be help,cannot be save ,Noone understand how i feel But luckily i not alone,i have friends surround me and give me the care n concern n the help in my financial...

My life is full of happening things....I dun know when will be a STOP n i can start my own life with my 2 precious n happiness will start..I dun like to hate someone,i dun even like to quarrel and i dun want to be a calculative person....Simply know that i had been helping this family alot ,dun tell me about how much u own someone and i am also owning some of my friend the help the $$$$...I didn't say i didn't tell doesnt mean i siting at home and be a tai tai..I knew my life will not be a TAI TAI LIFE but than not to that extend THAT I START to HATE SOMEONE FOLLOW BY ANOTHER...=ALL IN A FAMILY I'm am a woman and i also someone daughter TOO....U wanted to RUIN UR children life i am no right to STOP but PLS DUN RUIN MINE CHILDREN...

I really have to think of my and children future i doesnt want a so unstable life and let my children to suffer..If i want to give my children a complete family but not to the extend of irresponsible act and show bad example to my children ... From today onward i will work as many days as possible and earn more money to let me have a secure life for my children and pay my debt and clear my bill...I have pile of bill and friends to clear....

I know myself what i need to do who to respect and who i dun...Cos u dun give me the respect as a human being why do i need to do SO...Dun use ur mouth and finger to point and say and u dun even see urself how much u worth people to RESPECT..How much money u have is ur own business ,If i would because of MONEY can do anything I WILL NOT BE HAVING THIS TYPE OF LIFE NOW...I dun care how u say me BUT ONCE U STEP MY FEET I WILL PROTECT MYSELF BY NOT DOING THE SAME THINGS AS YOU....

Today 有多一个朋友,来找我.....她是KELLY one of my colleague n friend too...
Dun know what it in my mind
I volunteer to help her
paint his nail
& clip her hair straight..
Let the photo do the talking===>

After that we went over to the KTV i usually go to sing.......The first time going with her,the very first song we sang 痛哭的人,made her tears she told me is her bunch of friend and her 主题曲....She say my voice sing song very 好听,told her she the first person who say that...Noone say my singing is good or no good no comment at all la..Whatever thank for her treat to KTV although now we working in Different company we are still friend...

Kelly lose a lot of weight from a L size little ladies to a S size little ladies...
I really have to learn from her..
I had been stuck to L size woman to only abit to M size only..
Sometime envy those woman i saw
who give birth
still look so slim and pretty...=)
(When will be my turn lei)

Wonder what my weight now??

Good morning everyone =)

My colleague Huiling(lynn) 21st Birthday
@ 24 10 2010

Her birthday cake (Hazenut chocolate cake)

The three of us in a
ktv ROOM...

My 2 wonderful colleagues cum Friend
So nice of knowing them...
Always chat while cleaning the product and hand moving..=)

Huiling came over last night,having dinner with me & 2 precious..This week i have to look after them myself,Mr Hong working afternoon shift..The finger with nail polish is i volunteer to help Huiling to apply cos i told her i have interested while i saw the manicurist helping me to do it...I am learning not that PRO yet...Rate 5.5/10

The webcam photo taken with my 2 precious
really love them =)
2 precious really grow up alot
Now i helping them to change realised
2 precious grow taller when i sit down to help them to change
seeing them growing and improving
I am happy to do anything for them =)

On the way preparing to work yesterday
A photo and rush to work =)

Waiting for Mr hong to buy breakfast back
while updating..=)

My wish now is to earn alot of money $$$$$$$$.....
ASAP
...

Mikkiel birthday is coming,He is going to be 2 soon...
Have to plan about it ...
Real soon..

Babysitting Service

Do you need someone to help u to look after ur precious for a few hours???

(Jot down my number and save in ur handphone
if u need my babysitting service just give me a call)....
No prank call allowed =)

The service will be available from 1 december onwards please do call and enquiries..

(Please kindly know that i not a full time babysitter,i wanted to help to look after only look 1 baby or 2 children at a time when parent unable to look after for few hours...)



When i was still a housewife n a mummy of my 2 precious i used to have this problem,
(who really will need babysitting services)

• Going out for appointment but cannot bring 2 precious along
• Going to bring precious to doctor appointment alone how to bring 2 children along
• Going to DnD with hubby but doesnt want to bring children along
• Going out with friend but wanted to catch up with friend dun want to bring along children

&
noone can help u look after
etc...
And if u need someone to look after ur precious for a few hours
pls contact me...

No fussy parents.....

My babysitting skill is learn from NICU kkh when my first child is a preemies and if ur children will be joining us on SATURDAY or SUNDAY (Lunch or Dinner will be provided) (no charges add)..My meal for the children NO MSG IS ADDED...Environment wise the parent can come up to have a look and ensure whether u want to put ur children depend on what time u wanna to bring back..(minimum is 4 hours)

• Bath baby n children
• Feed baby n children
• Coax baby when baby is crying and coax baby to sleep..
• Play and teach them simple English

(Do you face the same problem also NOW)

Service For BABYSITTING :

I am providing Home babysitting service in your house or u can bring ur precious to my house where i am staying @ boon lay drive ...I am working as a part time executive while my 2 precious is attending their cc..To provide this service is to help those MUMMIES wanted to have some own times and CANNOT bring children along..I am here to help and look after ur precious,put 100% cos i had look after my 2 precious from baby till now ( sarah is 3 years old and mikkiel is going to be 2 years old soon)...I love children too...

Advance booking for baby sitting service is (1 week before the actual date)
Timing is from (10 pm to 5pm) From Mon till Sunday
Except when my children is sick or i have to work on that day sorry i will not able to provide the babysitting service



To let the parent know is u want to put ur precious into my care on weekdays,i only can provided service at my house and if u dun mind i have 2 precious at home too...Only 1 children more i will be able to look..( 18 month and above)

Maximum 2 children can be babysiting if ur children able to walk..If i will be babysititng at ur doorstep..I can help u to cook for them,coax them to sleep,help change diaper and make milk and etc.....Teaching simple English able to do so..(no charges will be added for this service too)



The Charges for babysitting=>

Time available is from (10 am to 5 pm) after 5 pm additional charge of $10 more to the total charge:
Call and make advance booking 1 week before the actual date:

Baby from 1 month and 12months , by hourly charges
(from monday till friday )

1 hour= $12 (minimum 4 hours)
1 hour = $10 (maximum 5 hours and above)

if wanted me to look after for a few days ,price can be negotiable

Children(from 12month and above)
(from monday till friday)

1 hour = $8 (minimum 4 hours)
1hour=$6 (maximum 5 hours and above)

Have to paid half deposit first in case last minutes problem deposit will not be refunded..
I will cancel the service if my 2 precious is sick or something happen last minutes i will promise the cancellation is till really no choice than i will cancel and i will refunded the half deposit to u...

Parent have to bring their precious own stuff /belonging like pamper,milk powder,milk bottles,waterbottle & one toy that he/she loves..Light meal will be provided during the short hours..eg.Biscuit,cakes and small snack....

A bright saturday afternoon

yesterday two indian man came to our shop and
do some cable and wiring for broadband..
I am looking after them
cos they bring in a big ladder
to our small shop...

The weather was damn bright and hot,

Uploading some photo thru facebook...
Yesterday work 12 hours from 10 am to 10 pm
Business nowadays not very good
But customer come in like 一阵风
come in alot of customer at times
but no customer really no customer..

I tell my self i have to work hard extremely hard
to earn more money am pay my debt and bill..
Since when i start to blog i had been say that sentence above for very long..
That time is because i able to do much cos i was staying at home looking after my 2 precious...
Now at least i believe if i work long hours in the weekdays and he can help me look after 2 precious provided he no OT i want to work more hours and i can clear my debts and bill by end of january 2011....

Lately i realised alot of people is with Oily scalp and Oily hair..
(including myself)
I am more worst i have oily skin, oily scalp...
Have to find the right product to cure the problem...
Wondering what product i have to use
due to weather too...

Everyday wash hair but than i still have oily scalp problem
and every day wash my face twice still having the problem...
Hope my oily problem can be solved soon..
Another 2 weeks and 1 day is my brother 大喜喜日子...
(helping them to count down)..

I wearing sock at night cos my feet is so dry and
put lotion and cover with sock..

here pain there pain anywhere also pain =)

grow older have many problem
so must take care of own health okay =>

I want to earn many many many $$$$$$$$$$$......
Pls click on my ads on the left column in
u happen drop in to read my blog
thank a million =)..

♥ my 2 precious class photo ♥

Today i brought my 2 precious to school...........

the class photo was received when yesterday night i came back from work and feel so tired...when he pass me the photo of my 2 precious i feel so delighted what i had work for 12 hours is worth it..(Will updated more lata on)

Recently headlines

Today headline:Copy the image from STOMP..

Read the headline from the Wanbao,sometime even went to STOMP to have alook of new around SINGAPORE..If u are like me have the habit to read newspaper will know what is happening..The feeling was not good at all reading some many sad news everyday in newpaper...

Secret Society was known when i was in secondary school many many years back..Very popular also..One school have many many different gang around...Saw alot of incident myself..Look back and see luckily nothing happen big in those year ...Year back when handle rebellion youngster neither is probation,sent to homes or even hostel...(Below 18 years old)...When young times can still called still dun know how to think...But if 18 years old everything done wrong must pay own consequences...eg. Throw ciggarettes butt kanna caught by any government sector ===> IC please FINE letter will sent to home...Everything illegal things done in SINGAPORE caught by police there is no second chance ===>See cases to cases but normally is like that..COURT===>WAIT FOR SENTENCE====> PRISON LIFE

What i can say is,What we done now as a adult we must think before we do what mistake u do u will pay for consequences..NOT ONLY ILLEGAL THINGS

R.I.P Darren and my deepest condolences to his family

(No matter what,it's a life that's lost.No laughing matter.)

I always agree this sentence:You kill someone You pay for it====> DEATH SENTENCE

I really wish dun want to have any incident from this minutes onward...Peace NO VIOLENCE NO WEAPON

Bugis trip with shiyim

Today morning wake up @ 7 plus cos mikkiel bring my hp to my bed and wake me up..He prepare for the children while i still laying on bed using my twitter account to TweeT.Get ready half-way godsister she not going with us,feel a shock and worry about her...Luckily she alright when i called her in the late afternoon...

Today i had try to use the fake eyelashes that godsis gives me and the clip my colleague bought for me...Finally i success to put on my eyelashes myself..He say i look pretty today WHATEVER i am happy i finally done this task on myself...But i think the glue to stick on my eyelid is not STRONG ENOUGH drop out in the late afternoon..heehee

The gift from my colleagues
The pink clip is a good tool for me
to put my fake eyelashes on...

Please take alook got what different ma..

Waiting for bus to come
so ask him to take afew photo of me...After meeting shiyim and jason we went to Guan yin temple to pray and went to have our lunch
@ tan quee lan street that he recommend nice STEAMBOAT.
Heee the spicy drumlet is nice
HOT AND NICE...
yummy..

Had a great day =)
Although the guy went to play billard and than two of their hp had no batt..
Making two of us
wait and wait
@ iliuma lol..

Tomorrow onward i am going to work more hard to earn more moolah..
more trip out with friend when i never work...
But have to clear my debt and bill..
Not forgetting my 2 precious
weekend i will spend time with them...=>

He Brought me two stuff to susprise me
end up get scolding by me..
So tight areadi still wasting money,,
(Guess someone tell him
or else how he know i did these two things)

Anyway bought me what is no USE
is the problem that i doesn't want him to repeat
and NO TROUBLE FROM HIS FAMILY...

My friend told me to give him some face
IF he want me to give him face
show me he can let me tolerate
and
SEE HOW..

(Stop the topic regarding him)

Teeth is aching
Can't get sleep..

I not thinking of anything
Recently i am very on in updating blog
Can updated some happy ones :)

Recently too much HAPPENING THINGS
cannot digest that why i been bloated lol..
BLOATED = FAT

My colleague one week off to genting come back
saturday went to take my schedule
she say SALLY WHAT HAPPEN
1 week never see me
why i like bloated lol..
Reply maybe the dentist give me the wrong medicine
instead giving me the reduce swollen he gave me
the swollen one
so i become bloated lol..

Teeth pain really pain
I so diffcult to let people understand what i say
I sound like eating a big bun and talk
like mumbling with word..
Worry will affect my singing anot..
Yesterday night as usually go YOUTUBE
and start my singing
start to sing
teeth pain....

But today i knew i can speak like before
no longer
eating big bun anymore..

I so glad
cos tomorrow i will be going to meet
2 bgfs ..

Today morning get angry buy 4d
buy the receipt number
my number really jump
lol
if not i tio $60 lol..

I think i will try not to throw temper
see i will tio anot
than i can repay my debt
&
can bao a big hongbao
for my brother lol..

Will 4 of us
become 3 of us...
(2 precious will changed their surname as LOH)
?????????

ONE MORE TROUBLE
THIS FAMILY WILL REMAIN
AS 3 of us..

I DUN CARE IS WHAT EVER..

Early in the morning i will be getting angry
I raised out my voice and scold *(&*&*(%^%$%
at him
(I mean everyday)
I can't stand myself being like this...

But i dun know why..

I'm not feeling bad to treat him like this
but is just that i feel that i not the usual ME
I scold i yell
i think even that 2 chinaman
listen till sick and tired also..
Exactly my feeling is also..

I dun know what i want from him
I hope he can get out of my sight
I Know i am sick of him
WHAT HE DOES..

Today what i am
HIS FAMILY AND HIM
CAUSE ME TO ME LIKE THIS
i knew what i had done not RIGHT
BUT
Do they think what they had those TO ME AND 2 precious
ALL USING THAT MOUTH TO SAY
I also know I also can
Why must i be like them
I just simply dun want to see them AGAIN..

Maybe is hormones
Maybe i am too tired
of this TYPE of LIFE..

Everything come to sudden
I haven't even take a breathe
and accept things after another..

People changed
I still the same
But they think I am a woman
with full of forgiveness
and
ALL OF THEM
think I CAN REALLY FORGIVE ANYTHING
WHAT THEY HAVE DONE..

People MAKE MISTAKE
BUT SOME MISTAKE IS NOT ABLE TO FORGET AND FORGIVE
so fast..

I am also a human being
I need someone who can
CARE N CONCERN about me
I knew i have many
I need someone who dote of me
But i only left none(1 left me 1 give up on me)
Dun know whether i feel myself fortunate or unlucky...

The world not even end yet,the earth is still moving,Time pass minute by minute
I dun know
why i am trying to be happy
but in the end
Smile and Happy
is drifting and drifting..

Finding a companion together
till the end of life
Is really HARD
人心难测....

Importance is
I have to find my life back
I have earn money
to give my 2 precious
& my parent
more secure life...
No matter down the road
I doesn't have HIM or have HIM
I want to depend on myself ...

I knew myself i had gave up this marriage 60%
Left 40 % and get back 100%..
Is real diffcult...

I doesn't my life
because of him
I have to face alot of guilty-ness..
Not i am thinking too much
i doesn't want to hate anyone
I also dun want people to hate me
FOR NOTHING
&
I have done NOTHING..

My parent also
uses their sweat n year
to brought me up
to what i am now...
I knew i cannot communicate well with my mummy
i knew if i stay with her
WORLD WAR III will start..
I dun think of taking my parent for granted
Since young i have giving them much problem to trouble
I dun want to bring anything to let them worries
i knew sometime their thinking is different
But what to do
I am fated to be their children..
I am have the responsible to let them to have no - worries life now
but i knew they are worries about 3 of us
cos we are living with a MAN
who is thinking unmaturely and
cause so MUCH TROUBLE ..

FEELING SO EMPTY
EMPTY
EMPTY...

Have left 10 month to end of this marriage
i dun have any positive thinking
anymore..

I have no words for him JUST PLEASE DUN WASTE MY TIME JUST GO OUT THIS HOUSE AND DUN MAKE 3 Of US INTO ANY NECCESSARY TROUBLE THANK YOU.. ONE MORE TROUBLE I PROMISED THE SURNAME OF THE KIDS IS NO LONGER
HONG AND TO LOH..

Dentist TRIP

Another one month plus is going to Christmas,and means mikkiel's birthday is round the corner..Big boy now and active alot...Small celebration with the family and bring him and jiejie out for a great dinner..

Dentist Trip (06112010)

Photo taken by: Mr Hong

After a few minutes of my question toward the dentist Dr Teoh, i decided to choose extracting my decay tooth although total is $1k+++++....My pocket have a BIG HOLE is burning burning.. This decay tooth teach me alot so (I'm better take care of my teeth and visit a dentist regularly it should not be like this)...A bomb lay on me and i have to once again need my friends to help so i can survive till this end of month..

Told myself from 9 november onward I AM GOING TO WORK HARD AND CLEAR MY DEBTS N I REALLY GOING TO SAVE $$$$ for rainy day...i knew i always mention it but I WILL DO IT DE...
After my dentist appoinment,bus back to jurong point and went to my company for awhile,Anna say aweek never see me my whole body like bloated lol...Agree I begin to BLOATED i think i have to go on diet SOON....

Time really flies very fast
18112010
will be my 嬷嬷 100天的祭日
for sure will be going to go pray..

Since 嬷嬷 had left us till now
dun know how many thing had happen to me..
i tell myself
i will be strong
will never gave up..
Even how break down
how sad i am
how i cry till tear had areadi dry up
i knew someone is looking after me
giving me a strength to live on
with my 2 precious...

How many things in our life
can be 从来
how i also wish to
but it will never never come true..
Not like watching a drama can be repeat and repeat..

I really hope 嬷嬷 can live happily in other world
not like the past think of us and worry of us
and never have a thought of thinking herself..
Even she left she wanted to left alone
quietly...

I will miss her until we meet each other again ..:)

How i really DUN LIKE THIS YEAR 2010
is a fact
and
i have to face the fact..
Sometime fact is always cruel
but than
face it and accept the fact..
I knew my beloved 嬷嬷
had left us..
It had changed the point of view on living of mine
at the began i think anything to everything
will lead me a better life
but than is not true..
Some people take advantage and even
make use of anything for granted..
I not refering HIM only
i mean those who had taking for my KINDNESS
my CARE n CONCERN
LIKE I AM A FOOL...

In the end
I learn my lesson i can be fool for once twice or many
never mind i know i will never be a fool forever
cos
纸是包不住火的
i will let go things that not for me to treasure
not meant for me to remember..
Not only marriage
i mean everything...

i having a bad tootache = decay tooth

Ever since on monday night,i feel the terrible pain i have from my tooth ..I wake up a couple of time to try some method to ease the pain so i can sleep and go to work..But in the end i think panadol work when the drowsiness make me to sleep...I cannot describe how pain it work but is = to the pain when i was giving birth (is not exaggerating) my few friends told me to when i complain to them my painful and my (xinku-ness)..
Tuesday morning ,chat with shiyim for a while ,realised both of our childrens' cc is increasing in their school fees lol..i still can able to talk i feel much better if i open my mouth to take lol...Went to work after that,chat with my colleagues complaining how pain i am last night,and chit chatting till the time is up to go to my dentist..
Luckily called shiyim when i was on my way to the clinic,it was my first time going to a private clinic and visit a dentist..It been so long i never visit a dentist till secondary till now...(YUP IT DAMN LONG...)Telling her how scared i am cos noone was with me and i going ALONE...Sit outside the bench and smoke first...Put down the call with shiyim and go in ...Register and wait not even 15 minutes my turn and went in than dentist help me examined and say i have to take off my nerves if i wanted to remain my teeth but he also never tell me can take off that decay teeth anot..Ask me go home and discuss with my family member and say he will give anti-biotics and painkiller and COST ME $50..Nowadays dentist really earn alot and that things he suggested me cost $180 lol...Luckily i doesn't have so much money with me it NOT i will ask him to straight away help me to do and ease my pain ..HENG AR some of my friend recommended me some dentist will call and ask and see which is the cheapest and good...
Thank for that dentist make me 2 days cannot go to work the very first day,face and my gum is swollen and at night i have fever....And TODAY is getting worse FEVER and than pain some more...Go Down and ask the dentist can i put off that tooth that make me feel so pain,he dun even understand what i toking cos swollen till what i speak is like(SQUEEZING THE WORDS TOGETHER) so i used write and he say CAN PUT OFF BUT THAN MUST wait till i dun feel pain than can put off and is a very small operation and COST is $200+++.
haiz now i still in pain,think saturday i will go consult another dentist i think on that day i can do it once and for all...I feel very pain if i can endure i dun need to wait and wait endure and endure..

I didn't know deal with dentist have to pay so much,i better take good care of teeth and 2 precious also..The pain is very very very pain..I'm a person who can endure pain also cannot endure so if u are a person who cannot endure pain pls take care of ur teeth and visit a regular dentist every six month...Dun like me wait till dun know how many year go to see a dentist and cost a bomb to me when i was in a very tight tight period...

tada my medicine i still living with this two kinds of medicine
hopefully i can stop taking this pills and the pain will go off soon..


thank for my friends who let me drag the money
and help me again n again when i had vitamin 'M' problem..
thank for ur understanding and the help..

I am going to work hard and earn more money when i recovered from the pain from my decay teeth
and hope everything will go smoothly for me & the people surround me ..:)