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mikkiel is watching 想握你的手 while i was feeding him....

Saturday again.....As usual staying at home with the kids,Imagine yesterday i watch 想握你的手 till around 3 am and wake up 9 plus when sarah is awake...Am now i still awake???I think i am 越夜越精神...I am alway mentioning wanted to sleep early but in the end alway good for 3 days and become normal again...I did try to go to bed early but than was turning left and right,my eye is still open so went out to living room to watch tv or surfing the net...Recently was watching the 想握你的手 in mobtv...hubby was addicted to this drama ever since he watch one episode in channel 8...Sarah and Mikkiel is watching with me when i watch it while i was having my meal or feeding them..But normally i watch at night with hubby or i watch alone...(Always staying at home sure must find something to pass my free time..)

Sarah and mikkiel is sleeping now while i have my own time...But now is around 1:43 am just finish doing some housechores...Recently i changed my time of doing my housechores cos now i need sometime spending time with the kids in the afternoon, while i am teaching sarah numbers i also teach mikkiel as well.I think sarah is more active when mikkiel is learning also cos she even teaches mikkiel how to say...Sometime see them playing together in the playpen while i was doing housechores i can even heard their laughter from kitchen..They really growing up...Sarah will be going to playground another 1 month times...i am thinking how will sarah react in the first day of school..Will be bring sarah to kkh next month for phsyical assement..I think everything is alright just that she still dun really know how to speak well,see how Dr Chua will be saying and very long never take sarah's height and weight since the last appointment with Dr Chua...The weather is so cool now the best thing to do is to sleep...Gd nite everyone :)

Post 86

hubby bought me a home slipper ..( it my fav colour)


received my sissy letter today :)

Finally i back to updated,i am not very active in online these few days was having fever,headache on and off..On the monday i was vomiting couple of time during the night,what i eat had been vomited out and decided to take 2 panadols hope it will help for my dizzyness..But in the end i still vomit out...Hubby was asking me what happen to me and whether i want to see a doctor i never answer him and went straight to the room and lay on my bed *straight*..(it been a very long time i never been SO sick before)The past few nights i can't been sleeping very well due to the headache i am to stubborn to go see a doctor and thinking why must waste the money to see a doctor...

In the tuesday morning,i called hubby when he is on the way to work i telling him i want to go see a doctor and he came back home....i can't even prepare my thing and the kids stuff...i just sit on the sofa and wait for hubby to be done and slowly walk to take a cab to the clinic...Luckily was not many people in the clinic,very fast i managed to see a doctor and luckily is female doctor and tell her what wrong with me and she suggest me to take a pap smear test...since i have been waited to take this test after my implagnon but than my mense is always in a very mess since i put implagnon till recent is become back normal again...Didn't expected is so easy and within a few minutes the test is done and doesn't feel any pain...The doctor also say i have yeast infection too i forgot to mention to her cos its alway happen in the night when the itchness caused and i was alway so absent minded when i went to see a doctor alway say this and forget that...She prescribed me with pill to insert and cream apply and the fever is due to the urinal infection and i also did not mention about the vomiting to her...I doesn't have a family doctor ever since i had moved to here for nearly 3 years plus i will let her to be my family doctor since sarah& & mikkiel and my hubby is seeing the same clinic...I have to wait for one week to know the pap smear result hopefully everything will be alright :)
going to sleep after taking my medicine...nite everyone :)

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happy 11 month to my precious mikkiel :)

Happy 11 month to my precious mikkiel

my precious turn 11 month...time pass real fast is areadi november...December is coming and mikkiel is going to turn 1 very real soon....COunting down his 1st birthday ....

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Our random pics

mikkiel random pics

mikkiel's playpen is alway out in my living room recently


Two botaksssss.....:0( very blur thank to my E63)

Today is friday exactly another month we will be holding a small celebration for mikkiel's 1st birthday..Another 4 days is mikkiel becoming 11 month....Time flies really REAL fast This year is going to end soon too i have not think what goal and aim i wanted for next year 2010 better go think about it when i have free time...Life no goal = Lifeless ,Life no aim= boredness of Life

Hubby stop working at night for the time being since the contract end so he have more time with us and he have more time watching the 封神榜 in the mob tv select...Last night he watch the drama till 5 am in the morning i wonder how nice is the drama but i normally dun watch what hubby is watching but what i watch hubby will sure watch...I dun like 古装戏 either...While he is watching i was blog hopping and read till 2 am...While reading tell hubby the blog i reading this gal can earn $10k by blogging how i wonder i was like her but i know i am just dreaming...I was just shiok of her blog and read and read cannot stop...I think everyone knows her but i might be a bit too late to know her blog.... if i can be like her blog and can earn money also good lol...(I am still dreaming)

Finally i have done all the housechores by today so that mean i can be more relax tomorrow more time for the kids too....I told hubby weekends is my off day i am not going to cook and do housechores in weekends but I will still cook for sarah & mikkiel but not for both of us....I ask him to taobao back when he finish his work...Weekends to me is the same we are very budget cos we have bills to clear and grocery to buy...Hubby night job salary 3/4 have to clear the bill only left 1/4 salart to spend on the rest of the month...It very bad to accumulated bills i learn my lesson so i have a idea to clear our bills every month so we dun need to headache about bills every month too...Having a own home is not easy but i believe we can do it tough period will be over if we know how to manage our finance well...The weather now is so cool i going to have a early night...大家晚安.hope my weekend will be a enjoyable oness...SO as everyone too :)


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I simply just love singing

Not feeling very well recently cos everyday will smell that paint smell ..Last Sunday hubby's parent come up and paint the door that smash by the ah long and what their youngest son had done....Due to the weather i had throat infection and on-off fever too..I still look energetic although i am sick can do housework,look after sarah and mikkiel and take a short nap in the afternoon,at night i still can have singing session at home....Since sunday till now i alway upload those ktv songs and start singing till i shiok or i feel i sang every song i upload...I realize it been very long i never been in KTV after my birthday...i only know how to sing those songs i used to sing in the 90s and some pop songs that recommend by friend cos i seldom listen to radio and music since i have sarah till now....I know there is some nice songs but dun even know the title at all...*xian half*

Since sunday we wanted to go out to get our grocery but than rain pour suddenly and postpone to monday but than hubby has to go work at night the agent call him suddenly and than tuesday evening is rain heavly so never go...Luckily today evening we manage to go and brought the kids out and walk...Since hubby went to work at night for 2 weeks we never go out at all and stay at home everyday ....Hubby now is at home everyday cos the night job contract end...Recently is busy inviting friend and relatives to mikkiel 1st birthday and have to find cater and the cake and alot of things have to be done too...I hope my sick will can recover soon and i think i am weaker than the past since i have giving birth to sarah and mikkiel...Immusation is not good compare to the past too...What to do is my life ..

Another mess day

Is another mess from the BIG EAR...Today I did not make a big fuss on it anymore maybe i am tired...Who know when they will be coming again...i dun know when will be an end of this 1 month 1year and 10 years. My mind is like &^%&*)(*)....Sit infront of the computer,staring blank and can't think of anything....Our Bill is accumulating and than still got this fcuking matter...(stress very stress)That stupid jerk know how to borrow money from ah long and dun even know where to find the ah long and than the place he live never kanna and my house always have this type of thing from the ah long...

"i am thinking of borrow money from people to pay the stupid debt that this stupid jerk borrow and use if for gamble"

i did tell my hubby,friend and they say why must u be the one who go return and u dun even borrow and didn't even use a single cent or who know u return and the ah long will call and ask more money next time...i not helping the stupid jerk and i just want stop the nonsense only from the ah long...So borrow money from ah long u also have to choose gd or bad ones...Good ones mean u pay up what u own they will never come and make trouble,Bad ones mean whenever how much u return they want MOREMOREMORE money....I also know in my mind but than i am just dun know what i thinking i just want the stupid ah long do not cum make any trouble to MY HOUSE anymore...I JUST want a peaceful life ONLY and i dun want colourful paint smash on my door AGAIN...

I love my new blogskin so much thank to shiyim recommend me this blogskin and help me do the setting..she waste almost the whole morning helping me to do the blogskin so nice of her .she will be back on saturday and hope she can enjoy herself :)

I feel very energetic now i only have 2 hours of sleep last night i thought today i take a afternoon nap while sarah & mikkiel is sleeping but NO i playing my facebook game while msn my friend...I really need to have the habit to sleep early..i alway made it for few days and than go back to the same again..The blogger is abit lag so i will stop here go back to play my game till i can go sleep...Gd nite everyone :)

STAGE OF MY LIFE

Year of 2005,is turning point of my life, i was suddenly disappeared for 4 month in the mid of february to end of june...I had brought to a heavenly place and i had met all kind of people.i hear real life story that may only happen in drama...i called it the stage of life...When i left the heavenly place,i tell myself i cannot continue to have the fantasy and illusion life i used to have for the past few years..my father is the main reason that made me awake,i never feel that pain before when i realize he is giving up on me and in the world he the one who dote me and pamper me.."The pain will alway remember just like when u put tattoo in anywhere of ur body it will never go off even u die"

Year 2006, i start to work very hard and earn more money,i work as a operator in a factory till a cashier in a tibit shop till a sale executive in a handphone dealer shop...hubby is alway with me since the day i stop my game on this relationship and we have heart to heart talk and promised try not to treat this relationship as a game and see this relationship will work anot...fate is the thing is always bring us together from the day we know each other (from year 2000 till 2006)...It seem to work and relationship of me and hubby goes on and on............

Year 2007,we are marry and i enjoy my first pregnancy for 7 month,hubby was with me from the 1st day i know i pregnant till i give birth to my baobei,sarah...My very first time staying in hospital for 2 weeks and my first child was born and my status changes to a woman to a wife of my hubby and a mother of sarah...i encounter alot of problem during my first pregnancy but hubby was with me throughtout it and my primary school friend,baobao too...I experience first thing in my life ,i encounter breakdowns and almost lose my life but luckily god save my life or else i will not be here i might be in the hell...Is also a year that i am living in a drama more than a real life but whatever what past is past...thank god i still alive and spending the time happily with my family...

Year 2008,my first time having a different chinese new year compared to the past 24 years,bringing our baobei out to enjoy the festival and also the first time giving out hongbaos...Alot of memories was kept in my heart,hubby was busy working and i staying at home looking after sarah and carried mikkiel is my tummy for 273 days...No matter how busy hubby is,he will never miss the appointment to accompany me go kkh or kk clinic for any check up,till mikkiel was born and complete our family....(mummy+daddy+sarah+mikkiel)= happy family

Year 2009,beginging of january staying at home doing confinement till march...looking after sarah & mikkiel is part of life, i can go out with my bff or my sissy when slyvia (helper) is still around since december till march helping me with housework and looking after the kids...she really look after sarah and mikkiel very well so i intend to go out and work,went for interview but no good news,afterwhich decided to send slyvia back to agency since i cannot find a job..Just nice when slyvia was sent back to agency the next day a handphone shop boss called me ask me when can i start work but than i have to reject him cos i have areadi make up my mind to stay at home to look after sarah & mikkiel..Is fated and just my luck that i cannot go out and work so hubby has no choice to try his best to earn more money to give us a better life...whenever our life is becoming abit better sure got thing gonna to happen....just hope 2010 will be a better years for us...Just another 1 month++ we have to say goodbye to 2009......

Hubby and i had been celebrating our birthday for each other for 4 years,only 2007 i was rold by my mum i cannot celebrate birthday for some reason so hubby never bought me a cake that year he bring me to Sakura for a dinner when i was carrying sarah in my tummy...i saw alot of my changes in my appearance,my figure and hairstyle when i was editing the photo....Imagine when i was 22 years old i start to have my first camera phone (panasonice x66) till now nokia E63 i am so "zi lian" of myself...oh my god is 5.24 am this is my first time using so many hours to updated my blog...

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Recently the weather is damn wired...The sun can be so bright and hot and the next minute the sky will turn dark and the rain pour so suddenly it be on and off for a few weeks...My weekends had spent quite well but of course always wanted to end the day something surely happen and make my days turn from :) to :(....

7.11.09 Saturday

Early in the morning,sarah and mikkiel wake up around 7 plus so i start to feed and bathe them and start to pack and prepare while waiting for hubby to come home...Hubby reach home and off we go to take cab to jurong west....Reached there saw a pasar malam helding on , is rather big and many stall had open and rarely see pasar malam in the morning and the stall is open...Many people is walking here and there,went to the clinic to take my diet pill and beside the posb atm there is alot of people q-ing up to withdraw money...I dun know why every part of jurong always is like this on saturday and sunday the atm machine is alway alot of people q-ing lol...Waited for a few minutes and collect my pill and off we go...Unfortunately we can walk to long cos hubby has to work cos his friend is coming to fetch us home and hubby have to start work...Didn't buy anything bought breakfast and pasar malam popcorn....No matter what hubby try his best to accompany go for short walk and i know he is very tired...Imagine everyday only manage to sleep less than 5 hours...

Reached home sarah and mikkiel went to take a early nap cos i doubt they wake up too early...While i taking my breakfast shiyim called me and she tell me a good news she is going out and work soon...Congrate to her and i know she can do it feel happy for her too...She was in her bff's house so we didn't chat very long....Playing fb games to pass my time faster when the kids is sleeping...I was addicted to the games again from "Pet society to soronity life to Cafe world"....Alot of my friend keep telling me how nice is Cafe world but didn't really into it but who know really into this game i was addicted..Actually is the same type of game like pet society but i still love it anyway i have 3 games playing on hand...Evening time, godsis came to look for me after she went to bugis for praying...I bring her to the pasar malam that i morning had go while sarah go out with hubby's mum and i brought mikkiel out with godsis...Did not buy much thing walk here and there,walk pass a salon and tell godsis i feel like trimming my hair,godsis say go lo i help u look after mikkiel...i reallly have to thank her cos she actually has to go back home around 7 plus but she still ask me go cut she wait for me and help me look after mikkiel...Finish cutting is around 8 plus and take afew photo with godsis and off we go and cabbed back to my nearby place and accompany godsis to wait bus...Brought mikkiel home and mikkiel dun really recognised who i am after i cut my hair...i talk to him he see me with his big eyes without blinking but when i take a hair pin and pin on my fringe he start to recognise me back...So funny lol...While waiting hubby's mum to brough sarah back pack the things i bought and when sarah came back , bathed her and three of us sleeping like a log...I enjoy my saturday lol

8.11.09 Sunday

Everything is alright in the morning till evening...The same things i have to do and played with the kids...I have some argument with hubby and quarrel...The same old things always happening same people same situation...i cannot stand anymore and tell my point of view to hubby..This time round at least he know what he is doing...Sometime people always think of them ownself =selfish just because this type of people exists is this world and make us quarrel lol....We alway have quarrel because of people outside i know very rubbish but than just that hubby dun know how to see things clearly and met alot of cunning,scary and selfish people..After hubby come back from work i dun feel like talking to him and keep quiet and he keep saying alot of things and make me feel he really did things never really go and think,i hope he can learn from his mistake and stop repeating the same old ones...But he is not the one i should blame is just i vent the anger on him cos that people is some who related to him...i hope no more this type of problem anymore cos i really cannot get used of this type of people living in this world only think of ownself if everyone behave like this there is alot of enemies in this world no peace and hope god will change them ..Since hubby now can really work hard for this family hope everything will be fine and go well soon...I only want a simple and happy life izzn;t so difficult.....

"forget the past and focus on the future. Stop obsessing on what you have lost and get what you need now."

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oh no my round face


see my fabby arm and my tummy so big lol...oh my god
last night i went in to my bedroom and snap a picture of myself and off to my lala land @ 11pm..

Is raining outside the weather is abit humid,how cum rain still feeling so hot...thunder roar awhile...the kids is sleeping while i was updating here...Yesterday i am able to sleep early with sarah & mikkiel...but 6 am wake up to make milk for mikkiel i thought i awake but i am just too tired and go back to sleep...9 am wake up saw hubby playing game and he greet me good morning and i just too tired to reply went to the kitchen and get the ingredient i going to cook and today menu is 卤肉饭 and minced meat porridge with potatoes,get ready the ingredient and start to cook i used 1hr time to done my cooking..Hubby went to sleep and bring the kids to bathing after that feed them with their lunch after 11 plus...Wake hubby up and he has his lunch before going to work,he praise my 卤肉饭 delicious and he say my cooking is improving and taste better than before...When hubby went out to work i have to do the washing and mop the kitchen floor...Finally finish my housechores near 1 pm and sit down and play fb games while marry call and we chit chat for awhile...My butt stuck on my computer chat for 30 mins and start to do my housechores again clean here and there and keep the toy properly while sarah and mikkiel is taking their naps...

Housechores housechores everyday but i still putting weight haiz yesterday i take out my weight machine and weight myself and ask hubby to help me see what my weight while i standing on it:Guess how much i weight 54kg but i still look fat(see the photo above)i have flabby arm ,thick waistline and tummy getting rounder oh no WTF i am getting on diet next monday so i have 3 more days to enjoy any food anyhow...i have plan my diet and gonna write on a paper and paste on the fridge so everyday while i taking out the food to cook i will remember i am going on diet not to eat SO MUCH and after 7 pm no food can be consume...i am going to be strict on myself this time hope it will work...This few weeks i was always with the kids and hubby have to go out and work everyday only manage to sleep for 5 hours...morning go out 11 and come back 5 plus and 6 plus went to work again and came back next morning 9 am..."JUst received a msg from hubby he will not be getting his salary today again" i really get used to it his morning job alway like this i wonder he is working for this company for almost 1 years from $40 a day drop to $30 a day from a week salary to everyday salary yet sometime he never manage to take his salary everyday...How hard he work i think noone will appreciate what he done and go out to work is earn money but than he work but than never get the amount he is taking and i wonder will he get bonus? last time i used to blame him about his job but than now i realised i shouldn't blame on him he is working because of this family he has the reason why he is sticking to this job i finally understand i alway quarrel over with him about his job and etc....But no matter what i dun want him to work so many hours i just want him to find a stable job ,stable income...i thought i will not be having any long post today...Nowaday i was addicted to mobtv select i been watching 企鹅爸爸 to Parental Guidance whenever i free and i switch off my computer earlier compared to the past day..

Post 82

sarah & mikkiel just born

sarah & mikkiel 1 month

sarah & mikkiel 2 monthsarah & mikkiel 3 month


sarah & mikkiel 4 month

sarah & mikkiel 5 month

sarah & mikkiel 6 month

sarah & mikkiel 7 month

sarah & mikkiel 9 month

sarah 11 mth

Can't believe that my baobei and precious had grown so much...Today afternoon siting down on my computer table while sarah and mikkiel was taking their nap...I saw alot of their photo in friendster acc...From just born till now the changes of them was so much .Time flies very fast now is areadi november next year sarah is going to school and another 7 month mikkiel is going to childcare and i am going out to work...I have to treasure the time that i staying at home with both of them..I knw when i go out and work i will have lesser time for them but i will try to work hard with hubby and give them a better life see them happy i will be happy...他们真的长大了....

Post 81

Wow have to say bye to october and welcome the month of novemeber..today is 1st november 2009...Another 2 month it will be 2010 areadi..Another one month and 24 days is mikkiel 1st birthday....Still wondering what types of celebration BBQ,buffet or chalet...Have to calculate the expenses cos we are quite tight this few month and after mikkiel's birthday another 2 month time will be chinese new year alot of things need to buy and of course money play a very important part too...Still wondering hubby will get his bonus anot...i know i am very free lately cos at night hubby not at home and i dun need to let anyone use the computer while the children is asleep but i feel abit of lonely..What to do is life :)

"We always wanted to save money but than alway money no enough how to save."

Alot of friend had share their saving tips to me but i dun think is not suitable for us...My hubby now dun have a stable jobs and he never work in a big company no CPF no benefits no leave if one day he is sick (i afraid of) no compensate too...NO insurance coverage TOO...i understand why he has to be like this cos of our family but than i really hope he can find stable job and have a nice boss and have the benefit that employer has can areadi...I know he had been working hard but i just want him to work one job and spent time with family and sometime he also can spent time with his friend ...Man also need their own time too BUT than must manage their time well first or else Spent time outside more than family after work is call NEGLECTING..I have to go set some goal and wishlist for 2010 and life must have some goal and wish than life will not be so empty...Agree My wish this month is i can have a peaceful and happy life with my family hope there is no happening things going on....

i hope my face will be like this everyday when the life is on going days by days not only HOPE i WANT IT ...

Smile everyday happy forever is what i want
(will my wish come true,aladdin i need you badly can u kindly lend me ur whatever pot)

HAPPY NOVEMBER TO EVERYONE TOO :)

Advanced Happy Birthday to my dearest PaPa

生日快乐to my dearest 爸爸

我来唱一首歌
祝你生日快乐
生命真的可喜
让我向你祝贺
我来唱一首歌
祝你生日快乐
因为有这一天
我们才能唱和
天天相见
说不出蜜语甜言
对你的爱藏在心田

就在今天

衷心地祝福你

快快乐乐直到永远


祝你生日快乐祝你生日快乐

my dearest 爸爸

The photo is taken on 2008 when sarah is having her first chinese new years

This post is specially for my daddy.Another half and hours is his birthday i know he is in his lalaland . Tomorrow will give him a call and ask his precious darling sarah to wish him a happy birthday...Unfortunately we cannot celebrate with him this year and i had give him a red packet when i was in my parent's house and Next year i will really work very hard and earn alot of money to give all my loved one a very SUPRISE birthday....I promise

Last but not least Happy birthday to my dearest daddy in my heart i really grateful to what he had done to me for this 26 years and i know i had make him disappointed again and again but he never gave up on me... i knew we will never be the same like the past year in my heart i am very sorry...i will try my best to maintain the father and daughter relationship like now or even better,i do really hope u can be happy and healthy always...In my heart u are the best father in the world and noone can represent u in my heart...Happy birthday papa