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Nothing happen dun worry.
just let this blog to
be
a
memories
for
everyone...
I'm alright dun worry i just
不写了....

sarah birthday video...

This year different no photo a video to let people who never listen to her nice and cutie voice before...:)
happy birthday to my precious sarah..:)

Thank to people coming in and read the post...

While waiting for my 2 precious coming back
hubby's mother brought them to see doctor..
Thank her for helping looking after them
this few days...

Today morning wake up at 2 am
and done stuff chatting with friend
who was "window messenger"
thank for the care and concern
and they had mention the blog i had updated
yesterday
the very wired things
is i never ever link the post
to facebook status before..
funny rite..
whatever
after all
this is blog is all about..
I updated whatever i want i like ..


Decided and told hubby
i want to go down amk
and he off to work...
I had been years never sit on BUS/MRT
early in the morning
didn't even know the timing for the first train..
The jourey to amk take about 45 mins..
Noone know i going down
cos was told not to go
yesterday..(by mummy)scared i might get tired
Going to collect 嬷嬷ash..
Once again
Big uncle call and say
he will not able to come...
ONce again when we do praying for 嬷嬷,
Rain pour OUT OF SUDDEN
and everyone knew the reason..

Heart sunk again but than was trying to
tell 嬷嬷
rain still continue
and than we went up to the place to put
嬷嬷togther with 爷爷
and
after some many years
they are together...
We went to the place for twice cos praying purpose
and
the thunder came twice
when we was in the level 8.
and
tell my
'爷爷&嬷嬷'
tell 爷爷
to look after 嬷嬷
and keep telling
嬷嬷
Dun cry le
and i told her i go find "aeroplane "
and burn for them..
Than they can go
唐山...
But must give me sometime
told hubby about it and
he say "can burn aeroplane meh".
meaning got paper aeroplane exist meh..
Dun have i fold one for them..
Will go ask some expert
whether got anot..
(不知则无罪)

Today on the way to the place for collection ah mama's ash
婶婶tell me the price of
ah mama 's 大大的家
so i think if there is aeroplane for burning for ancestor
i dun think will not be expensive..
Cos the price is not we think...
(not going to reveal here )
If not if can burn aeroplane but there is no such thing
bo bian
i fold nice nice for
爷爷&嬷嬷...

After tat we went to take our breakfast
@ braddell..
I hope 大伯can free free go pray
爷爷&嬷嬷..
maybe he know how to use computer
maybe one day he will see my blog
(uncle know how to use computer not very strange anymore...)
Got the urge to get his numbe and give him a call
BUT
father is going to find him for coffee this sunday..
and brother also had not been seeing 20 years,(many things to say)
i even ask papa can i tag along and bring 2 precious also
and
just hope
we can still closer
and every year can go pray our
爷爷&嬷嬷
maybe some gathering @ for dinner or whatever
to let the relationship of everyone remain and bit closer...
Hope the next visit to pray
for
爷爷&嬷嬷
The weather can be bright bright...

Happy birthday to my precious baobei & Carolynne sis

My precious & godsis Birthday ..
So Happy Birthday to them together,
cannot celebrate with them..
This year hubby will be the one to choose the cake & the present for baobei...
Waiting 2 precious coming back...
Many days had not been seeing them..

嬷嬷,谢谢您

The 27 years of my life,ever since 28th july till now had not been sleeping properly,我从来没有过的痛苦 @ 11 08 2010 起 ,嬷嬷 pass away and the pain was with me and till now i finally feel much better...

疼我的人没有几个
嬷嬷就是一个
嬷嬷疼每个她的孩子,媳妇，孙子
嬷嬷是一个不会表达在语言
可是她连要走，都选择不要让我们看到，
走的时候，她还可以想个不会让我们拿太多假期的日子。。

我其实很想把嬷嬷找我的大伯，可是登报子
没能力。
从第一天到嬷嬷得最后一晚，
我一直很想登报子可是
还是找不到，
默默得遗憾，默默的哭
念经的时候，还一直下雨(嬷嬷在哭)
心好痛之可以默默得说
(嬷嬷对不起)
雨越下越大
我的心就好痛。

直到姑妈跟我说
(翠玲，明天大伯会来嬷嬷得灵堂)
我就好高心，希望明天快点到来
(还跟嬷嬷说奇怪 雨就停)

今天早上到来，天气真的很好(嬷嬷真的很开心，期待大伯的倒来)
还跟妈妈和堂姐说，希望大家尽量不要哭，让嬷嬷走的开心不要牵挂因为嬷嬷真的
是一个没有话说的长辈)。(样样为我们而想)
时间越来越经，突然又下起了大雨
以及在等阿等，就去问三叔大伯真的会来吗
走来走去
还把一个陌生人当成大伯。。
当全部得人快要集合帮嬷嬷念经的时候，
一个男人就跑来，雨就停了。
让我真的相信 天阿真的真的对我真的真的很好，让我的嬷嬷真的走的没遗憾，
天气真的好好，从大雨慢慢停了，太阳出来了。
到了Mandai Crematorium,
我就一直跟自己说：嬷嬷会去做佛 不要不要哭。。。
忍阿忍，到了viewing hall
嬷嬷就要被火化，走阿走，心真的好好痛。
现在还是好不舍得，可是嬷嬷真的走了。
还是要给自己一点时间.

嬷嬷，在我懂事以来她从来没跟一根人说她好想大伯。
20年，我真的不知道嬷嬷是这样过这思念一个孩子得日子。。。

直到嬷嬷的最后一程，嬷嬷才能够在棺材里，默默知道20年思念得孩子回来了。
知道嬷嬷走的没牵挂和安详，我的心真的真的没那么重了。

婆婆真的走了。。

我的亲爱的嬷嬷
(01011920 - 11082010)

Today morning,mummy called me for a few times but due to the medicine i taken i only managed to called back 25 minutes later,i knew the things she will be telling me and drop the call..Told hubby about the news..

Silent night,2 precious is sleeping,hubby is watching the drama and eating potatoes chip i started to MISS HER..my grandma

I told myself i have to be strong,grandma will go to heaven but my expression and the worst is i can't control my tears anymore...Drop drop when i was laying on the bed facing the window curtain...Tomorrow i still have to wake up early ,grandma body will be collected tomorrow...Noone saw her goes,i knew even she goes she still think of us..SHE DOESNT WANT TO LET US SEE HER GO COS SHE DOTE ALL OF US....

NO matter how grandma had gone but i will be strong i will look after my parent and my family well..Hope ah ma ma will be happy in the heaven and pls come to my dream and tell me how are you okay...

婆婆，请不要为我们担心

Was feeling very very unwell from thursday night after drinking my cough syrup & medicine,
my stomach start to feel very bloated and heat is coming out from dun know where and i start to vomiting while i was watching( 明星特工对2) halfway..Feel very xinku and in the end i doze off to sleep after tat..

The next day morning,i was shivering like hell and my temperature was @ 38.1'c..Hubby didn't go to work stay at home and look after me and help me do some housechores ..
In the late afternoon teacher call and say mikkiel having diarrhea so
hubby brought him home and give him the medicine and i am still in my very blur blur mode..
Ever since grandma was in critical condition my mind is like
(blur blur & dun know what i am going to do next mode)..
i wanted to get myself recover fast but the sickness is getting bad to worse
i just wanted to save that money for dun know what and
I forgot to see doctor myself when i brought mikkiel to see doctor..
Thank god he has recover but i still not..Didn't let mikkiel drink his regular milk and instead i bought him Isomil 2 Advance..

2 precious was in hubby's mother house for 2 day(Sun till Mon) but
my sick will not getting better AT ALL
i dun even have the strength to go see doctor(those who had came to my house would know WHY)
still vomiting at times,
Yesterday hubby went over to my parent's house and
i was at home laying on the bed but when my hubby call me and say the doctor say my ah mama was in VERY VERY VERY CRITICAL CONDITION
dun know why
I JUST JUMP OUT and WEAR MY CLOTHES AND ON CALL A CAB
AND HEAD DOWN TO
TTSH..
Didn't yesterday is NATIONAL DAY when TAXI UNCLE MENTION TO ME..
BUT WHO CARES ABOUT THAT AT THAT MOMENT
my mind just hope my destination can reach..
When up to the LEVEL 10 my grandma bed and saw 姑妈 was crying
I was told not to CRY INFRONT of my grandma SO control
endure & endure
Wait for everyone to come (one by one)
Everyone is feeling sad of course
but we want GRANDMA to leave with no worries..
Father told my grandma
everyone is here take ur time to go slowly
GRANDMA keep open her eyes
AND i knew she is waiting for someone
neither is my 大伯 nor my大姑妈 ....

I admit my grandma is a very strong and i knew she is getting weaker and weaker by listening
her breathing BUT
everyone know she is waiting for someone..
Hubby and I went home cos 2 precious is coming back from MIL's house..
Told my grandma and say i will be going back to see her ..


I knew Grandma will not be together us long,
Just hope we can be together with her even though is
HER LAST BREATH..
Doctor told mummy,Grandma will just stop her BREATH anytime,she just hold to it
with a reason..
She will be going home tomorrow,i will be getting myself well and do what i can do to
make my live with
NO REGRET..

婆婆，请不要为我们担心
我们已经长大了。。

亲密的人一但离开,
不管去了哪里,
，就不会再回来了...

<珍惜我和她一起的时间>....

My random updates

Last monday was my 27th birthday as usual hubby brought me out and we went to bugis to the temple and pray for my grandma and our family and of cos everyone in the world too..

The everyday routine :Bring 2 precious to school & brought them back home sweet home ")

On last week help one of my friend to be the model for exam for dye..The first (Starting from the left) was the colour my friend dye and maybe very long never dye so bright colour i not get used to it SO i dye my hair to black ....My home sweet home finally have a NEW colour and bedroom had complete no more " CRACKED WALL AND PAINT" ..Actually i should be happy but i dun't know why i am still :( ..
I hope i can get to watch this movie but i think i have to wait till this movie to released by DVD cos i have no time for anything ..I am waiting for my sick to be recover and can go visit my grandma..The whole week (from tuesday till now) i am still sick whole body is aching and shivering CANNOT go visit my grandma cos i am still coughing till lung coming out and running nose..

Last but not least,Have to thank my dearest hubby,family & friend who post their msg @fb or sms-ing thru phone asking me about my grandma and wishing me on my birthday..Really very thank to those who never forget my birthday every year..:)