Saturday, October 31, 2009

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20 43 i am very tired but than i have to wait for sarah to come back from her outing with hubby's mum...His mum brought her to hubby's cousin daughter 1st birthday held on a hotel...I hope she can enjoy herself over there...Hubby went to work on his new job and mikkiel just get to sleep after playing with me...He is very playful and active now he loves to fake cry when i left him on the room and i go out to do some housework...i mean FAKE LOUD CRY

I realise this few month i am very unlucky and not everyone understand the situation i am now but i am not going to say so detail anymore i not blaming anyone who dun understand but than dun say 风凉话 = 打消别人积极性的嘲讽话。i dun think u are really my friend u will not use this type of words in me...I am not going to state who and whatever if u are cherish the friendship than i hope u can better change the attiude toward to everyone or else one day u end up with no friend when u need someone to talk...Yesterday night i did not manage to sleep for a whole night i dun wanna to mention it here anymore cos i think i am rather used to it might be too tired till dun wish to say anymore...haiz a tired saturday sarah is coming a few minutes i going out to wait for her...Tonight sure have a very nice sleep and the weather is nice too...gd night everyone

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hubby went to jurong point to buy subway,but i can't eat the whole things i ate half and throw away the other half.....

i am getting fatter see my face is getting rounder and rounder ...

my sexy baobei........

what precious is doing,biting is teething toy lol.........he got a new nickname is 大伯公...


mikkiel is growing taller and taller..............
The scenery that when i was standing on the balcony and having puffing session...



Sarah and mikkiel is sleeping and hubby is sleeping halfway and wake up and came out and sleeping on sofa and i am listening to his "techno"while updating. i areadi get used to it ...I am very happy that my hubby had found a new job and tomorrow is his first day of work....I know he is working very hard for this family....If he can able to work peacefully this time hope no more happening things will happen and than hope this time round he can able to find some "click" colleagues while he is working,cos time flies faster too....

Life is still the same...Everyday is doing housework and now sarah can speak more better and she can even communicate over the phone with my mum and mikkiel is improving he seldom wake up at late night asking for milk...i am getting rounder and rounder oh no i have to do something on it i am eating supper everyday since i came back from my parent's house till now...i have to do some diet plan starting on Novemebr...Recently i am watching 2 drama in mobtv one is "企鹅爸爸" and another is "一切完美" while watching had learn some life quotes that the actor and actoress had say while they are acting..I really learn alot of quotes for myself and my life from Perfect Cut...Sometime Quotes and Phrases can really useful when u are hopeless or trying to think negative way...Encourage those who wanted to go for plastic surgery can just watch this drama Perfect Cut and than decided whether u want to do it anot...I have nothing to updated tomorrow is weekends hubby is going to work so probably not going out staying at home and try to make myself busy and time flies fast too...Now staying at home is not as boring as before try to find thing to do and try to enjoy it is also a good things...Happy also a aday sad is also a day why not be happy for everyday...Very hard to do it but i am learning it everyday from the day when i watch "Perfect Cut" till now...“如果能够包容不完美,就能一切完美。”Hope i can success one day.........


Some life quotes i learn from the drama "一切完美"

“我们在同一天内,让别人看的时间,就比我们看自己的时间要多,怎么能不在乎别人的眼光?”

“人总是在要失去的时候,才发现时间的速度。”



Happy weekends to everyone........

Monday, October 26, 2009

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Hey did anybody miss me ,sarah & mikkiel ?? i doubt so...Received alot of phone call and msgs cos i have been nearly 5 days never online and some friends thought what happen to me???I am alright i just came back on saturday night from my parent's house...

Finally i have free time to updated,sarah & mikkiel is in their lala land and hubby fall asleep looking after them in our bedroom and just finish chatting with shi yin...my knee is getting better but still swollen....Saturday was my lucky day i finally tio-ed 4D is my first time striking lo my feeling is like so happy but after all i only strike $20..I really dun feel like to mention those things that happen on last wednesday and the 5 days staying in my parent's house i feel happy and the kids is enjoying...i dun feel well when reach my parent's house but than i really thanx them for really care about me and the 2 kids...My father had to work and came back help me look after sarah & mikkiel while i can take a short bath and etc....I am very thankful to my parent :)

This few days was quite busy with the cleaning and tidy up the house every morning times really flies very fast and afternoon will chat with shi yin and life is becoming back to normal....My house had installed a camera and was feeling wired but who cares life still have to go on even camera is installed hope the loan shark dun come and make any trouble....Hubby's bro was kanna beaten by the loan shark's runner and had snatch away the wallet and ic was inside they threathened him that they will go borrow loan shark using his IC on the saturday night when we reach home and he call my hubby...After all they only give his brother a kick and snatch the wallet after seeing the CCTV in the neighbour's place...I have no words to comment but this is the outcome if never return the money to the loan shark or whatever...I will never pity him also who want to hate me because i have throw egg on him on wednesday and give him a damn loud scolding infront of people corridor or writing things here go ahead i will never give a damn...i will continue to write if anything is happen hope things will come to a stop cos we are really innocent...This is what i can say...Oh my god i getting fatter i am alway hungry lol i dun know izzn't my ah yi is coming hope i can have good news this few days lol...Hubby wake up and i am going to watch the "Perfect Cut " on mobtv select.....Sayonara

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Post 77


Sarah and mikkiel favourite toy



sarah is playing with herself,i think she is playing and learn to be some role herself


mikkiel is boring cos his jiejie dun wanna to play with him and he keep yelling and yelling..

Actually the whole morning till afternoon on the saturday,3 of us is enjoying cos we playing together laughing all the way teaching sarah & mikkiel singing and dancing....They take along nap after the fun...Wake up at around5 plus prepare dinner for them and feeding them halfway the tenant is about to go out and saw the paint that was splash by the "Big ear" and than i inform hubby about it and he come back a few minutes later....I never thought this thing will be happening AGAIN i tell my hubby not to interfere anymore let his brother go and settle himself or let his parent to help him settle cos whenever anything goes wrong my hubby will sure screw up by someone else and i dun like it anyway...i not siding my hubby cos he not the one who borrow loan shark and than he used my hubby name to borrow and than the stupid him also informed the loan shark my hubby changed address..This fellow (i mean hubby's brother) can be so smart to borrow money from loan shark and than he is so stupid to give the ah long the real detail and he even can give his home number to the loan shark....He is the one who borrow and my hubby will automated to be his gurrantor...Dun ask me why cos if there is stupid rules that loan shark have but than of cos they is good and nice but there is some who is cruel and because of money they can do anything they like " to ask back for money"...Frankly speaking i wanted to updated on saturday with sarah and mikkiel photo uploaded but who knows this loan shark thing will be happening...If i wanted to post so detail is very long and if i write more i afraid i will mislead people to go borrow loan shark....

I am very disencourage people who go borrow loan shark cos the interest is high and if u cannot managed to pay u will get into trouble and u also let the person who be ur gurrantor to get into trouble...Of course normal people will know borrow loan shark money is a very foolish and stupid thing but of course some people who borrow is really for some uses not like that fellow borrow and go gamble and end up who get into this mess my house,family and of cos his parent..

Today evening i am chatting with huili (my primary school friend) she contact thru facebook, she read my blog and she say to me how my life changes and she telling me last time when i was primary school i still a good and nerd (i add myself) gal and out of sudden we had lost contact for 10+++ years and i really changes alot but lucky me know how to u- turn back and now i am even a mummy of 2 kids...She tell me anything happen just think of my 2 kids cute and adorable and i might not get myself so stress and think so much..actually there is some friend did tell me this before it help when sarah and mikkiel is awake and accompany me but when they went to lala land and i will be siting in the living room and i will start think of the stress and the problem is bothering me...But i am really lucky to have someone who beside me chatting with me and worry something might me happen to me...I really can call myself lucky i alway have people beside me when something happen ...But whenever i start to think i lucky,bad thing will be happen once and another...i dun know when this problem of this loan shark case will be putting a full stop cos i not the one who talking to them and alot of things is the fellow and the fellow's parent is doing it..The loan shark will contact only the fellow and i dun think he can make it to negotiate with the loan shark i ask hubby to go over tml and talk to the loan shark and see what is happening and settle once as for all...Is a commons sense thing borrow money sure must retutrn money this very logic but is who u borrow from...Loan shark have their own way to maintain their business they also have to give salary to their worker who taking risk to help them to work...Better dun run away and return them if u really own the loan shark money how far u can go...If u dun wanna to get into uneccesary trouble dun borrow money from loanshark or be helpful to be guranttor maybe the person u help return and manage to clear the debt but when a few year later the person u help go borrow with the same loan shark and they borrow to the person and automated u will be guranttor and than the person never return u will get into trouble and u dun know when u will get in to this mess...u will even get shock so never be a gurrantor and even ur close sibling or whatever better say no than get into a stupiddebt that u didn't even spend a single cent...


Is raining outside i wanna to buy a pack of cigarettes and have some air session with the sky...Cos my balcony is facing a multi storey carpark and the sky...i am not encourage people to smoke but is my own liking...Never smoke do not pick up smoking cos smoking cause cancer and not a very good image as well but pls dun ask me why i dun quit smoking cos i will never give anyone an answer and if i quit smoking i will be happy but i had been smoking since 14 and count it many years i very happy when my friend or relatives telling me they quit smoking but i just never think of quiting smoking but just smoking less but if one day i have really no money i wiill never be so selfish to think of myself i will uses that money to buy my children things and i can just leave without cigarettes for a moment...i doesn't to lie if people ask me to quit i will just keep quiet or i give a smile cos i dun like to give empty promises....i think i really to Ar la liao...ar la mean talking alot crap.. gtg nitezz ....How u think of my blog if u think u will come back and read can help me do a small favour...( pls help me to click on my nuffangs ad if u saw it thank u so much ...




Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Post 76






First of all i wonder to really to say thank my parent who came down immediately and even ask anything they can help...My parent brought sarah back home on the same day..Even thought how the paint is clear and the mess that "BIG EAR" had done will never wash away the problem that brainless jerk had done....

"Thing still not settle yet"

The door not still not paint with a new colour and the paints have been bought by that jerk 's mother...The smell of the paint stay for a couple of days imagine staying at home and smell that paint will make a person gone crazy..A simple home let this jerk of my hubby make until a home not like a home..Family not like a Family...


This is because a stubborn people alway never listen to people advice and never ever learn from his mistake and we get involved and because we have to suffer and than these people still can throw temper to me and say whatever he done is because of this family..I am appreciated somethings that this person done but i just never agreed what decision is make cos he never wants to listen to people advice.You will never think how u treat me and u want people to understand u...Did u ever want to understand how i feel...Chances given to u is to cherish and not take for advantages...U will get breakdown than what about me...Selfish will never lead u to anywhere but just lead to a loner life...u are enough of everything but than i not....i never been telling once years by years how many time i had been keep telling u and the msg i sent u u never put it in ur mind dun say ur heart...U dun blame people dun care when u are sick cos u alway put what u think in ur mind...U dun like people to treat u like this than u dun treat people like this, In this world there is no much people like u,behaving like this and there is me who give u chances by chances..Mistake is made by u is not u to judge how big or small this mistake is...U dun like this life that wat god gives u i think there is alot of people wanted cos they just one a chance to live cos they know they had done really wrong but u....U alway say with ur word promise with ur word but u will just do it for awhile and changed to be ur own self within a few days or months...Life is not going to alway so lucky u made mistake people will forgive u and the problem is u given plenty of chance but u never take it seriously....u dun want people to give up on u,u show to me u can do it ...Once everything is gone u dun come and beg cos whenever u done wrong i need tell u before,dun regret when things have gone life only live once and noone wants to live this type of life forever..i dun care u get what i mean u want a peace life doesn't mean ur mouth to say and alway does this type of happening things and than u can accept how i treat u and u start ur temper and u let me see how u treasure ...When decison is made i will never look back on u AGAIN....Dun blame me for being so cruel to u cos when u start to treat me badly u will never think how nice and good i treating u and when u need a person i am beside u ..i need a people who have big hearted to accept what i had throw and endure my anger and i never throw temper anyhow u never made mistake i will never think of finding fault dun say quarrel..i dun care how u treat people outside i just want u dun treat me like other...Stop always thinking on ur own way and life will be better...u want to have a happy family not by saying is how to make the family to be happy not creating trouble and problem and come back and show temper to ur own family...U realised this family is important and there is no more chance given is too late cos u made everything to turn another way...u dun think u are blessed i have nothing much to say...u are consider lucky what u had done in the past and god protect u for no reason and u dun want to cherish when it gones u will never get it back no matter how u do to take it back...hope when u read at this post u will change for ur own sake if not u will lose what u treasure very soon...

I need time to forget everything had happen this few days,an advice dun ever look out for loan shark when u have financial problem or u are addicted into gamble and need money to win back the money u lose .When borrow money is very easy but when u owned them and never return this is what that had happen to our house will happen to u...But than noone in my house borrow money from loan shark but just that my hubby is lucky to have a real blooded brother can do anything for money...

Saturday, October 17, 2009

THE WORST THING I NEVER MET IN MY LIFE

THE PICTURE BELOW IS NOT COPY FROM ANYWHERE IS MY HOUSE DOOR



All thank to my hubby's brother ...My whole house has that paint smell NOW ...

Friday, October 16, 2009

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see the weather today can wash clothes and let the sun to dry the clothes and kill the bacteria....


thurday night 3 am mikkiel wake up and want me to accomapany him * so bad right*



than he start playing with his toys in the playpen and he went back to sleep at 4 plus ...

when i was scrubbing the living room floor mikkiel is playing with the water and walking here and there

Got see my shiny floor after scrub i use the mop the dry the floor incase *i fall down again*

mikkiel is seacrhing for the toy box and sarah is inspecting the table izzn't clean anot...hahahaafter finish my household i still can take a few picture of myself...:)


Oh is friday again..Time flies very fast now is areadi mid - October...10 month passes very fast i am still the same old me,looking after sarah & mikkiel and a temporary housewife...But of course the day goes by alot of things is different and unexpected things is always happening...Of course there is always some sweet and happy memories to be keep in my mind...People come and goes Life is very unpredictable and fragile.Every person point of view is different and the expectation of everything is also not the same....i always want a changes of myself but when i look back of myself i dun know what had really gone wrong...Is i the one need a changes or the people surround me need a changes...Sometimes they can be so good to u and next minutes they can talk to u like u own them a million...when they need u they say thing that can even make u fly but when they doesn't need u they can say thing to make u feel like the rest of the day is not right...What happen to this little world???People that i meet can be good at time i believe there is still alot of good people doing good deeds..But how many people is exist in this world...i ask myself what good deed had i done recently i can't even answer myself....My life now is always keep grumbling and full of complaint and sometime i ask myself what i had do wrong....Some friends knowing i staying at home and dun need to go out and work they say my life is great...How tired looking after 2 kids and maintain the house clean and neat and cook and wash every single day...i not tai-tai having high tea in hotel or having brunch at what restaurant...Although i always chatting with friend doesn't mean my hand is not moving...Of course i have free time but how much free time i have...I can spent the time on the computer and the phone and playing with the kids busy doing housework what else can i do....i have alot of wishes in my mind but when can it come true..a day, a month, a year or will never come true...i am not negative thinking people but sometime is hard not to think negative way...Too contradicting also not a good thingss....

When i have a happy life i choose a wrong path but when i decided to start a new life but life cannot goes back to the same and obstacles by obstacles i only can accept and face the fact i dun want to be a tortoise to hide inside the shell...

Today i am busy with the housework ,my first time scrubbing the living room floor it look shinny after i dry the floor with the mop...Sarah & Mikkiel is enjoying when i was doing housechores dun know what both of them is thinking but they loves to follow me where i go but sometime i feel irritate cos mikkiel's walker is blocking my way...but afterall they are still my everything...my house phone keep ringing but when pick up noone is speaking i think this few days i have a few this type of calls lol...Prank call i used to it but is damn noise when my phone is keep ringing lol....i close the switch of the hp and continue my housechores....Evening hubby came back at 7 plus and his friend bought me durian...he never rest and we have dinner together with the kids,never have a quiet and peace dinner cos while we eating mikkiel will keep yelling asking us to give him some and sarah will keep saying mum mum...i areadi get used to it...hubby went to work again and never take any rest hope he will not sleep while working..Sunday there will be unexpected guest is coming over to my house and actually shiyim is bring Caen over to our house have to cancel and ask her to bring Caen some another day all because to that nice man problem lol...Hope after sunday everything will become normal and lead our simple and happy life and no more problem is coming..............So my parent,hubby and all my friend can stop listen to my grumble and complain anymore:)

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yesterday,mikkiel stay awake 12 am plus and nothing to do so take some photo of him

doing some things he usually at home,hubby was sick and sleeping on the sofa mikkiel go and put his hair..
after my chasing he start to moved to the computer table and wanted to take my photo ablum and played with it...mikkiel seem to be very busy taken my things here and there....


after mikkiel went to sleep , i was very tired but cannot get to sleep *see my haggard face*



Yesterday night,hubby never went to work at night cos he is sick cos due to working 18 hours plus a day (machine also will spoil dun say human being)..Poor hubby and than all thank to that jerk my hubby throw a very big temper and than my ash try water was plush out and the computer table is full of ash and water....i have to clear it and than i tell my hubby why must throw temper and than we the one who suffer ignored him awhile and he apologised to me and ask me to understand him...i can understand him but i just cannot stand that jerk and i have enough of what he doing and sms him...he even make conflict between my hubby and his father...How terrible he is???all because of his stupid debt for what than however this is not putting a full stop at all...he is getting bad to worse to worst i wonder how this jerk can still living in this world with " the kind of feeling that nothing have gone wrong and still can give attuide" i am really think of give two tight slap but from thing happen until now i still never see him appear in my house but his parent...haiz just caming here to grumble and vent my little anger here cos i think i used to it anyway must thank this jerk for giving me such "peaceful life"....go and watch my baby bonus @ mob tv i am waiting for sunday to come and hope i can get a mic and say things clear and loud...Anyone want to sponsor me a microphone and a recorder????? End my word with :) cos i want to strike 4D and toto i cannot be angry from 18 october onwards

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

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i back to updated just finish chatting with shiyin and the kids is still in their afternoon nap so i shall updated....Saturday and sunday we spent our time at home due to we are very budgeting,only went out on sunday to get our grocery at night and when we come home realised mikkiel's booties was lost on the way we going home...hubby went out to settle that jerk things and i stay at home look after sarah and mikkiel and recently mikkiel is abit to cranky keep on crying when he can't see me and he keep even cry in the room while i was in the kitchen washing his milk bottles and i was chatting with shiyin and she even can hear his sound lol..Especially when the sleeping times he will keep crying and yelling when he cannot see me and i was laying on my bed i have to sit up and he see me he will stop his fake cry and smile again...*headache* been few nights i never sleep properly...I hope he can be better when the day goes by :)

Monday, was doing housechores and surfing the net after finished cooking porridge...The day was not very good i feel sick out of sudden and was dizzy and having fever suddenly and it had been few months never happen this out of sudden sickness but it come back again..i quickly went to my bed lay down and relax and ate 2 panadol...I never feel better and my throat was dry and pain think i talk to much recently and ate too much fried food...Hubby cames back and he help me look after sarah & mikkiel and i take some rest cos evening we will be going to PAP to see MP...Evening prepared and went to PAP and wow there alot of people inside lol hubby go register and i wait outside with sarah & mikkiel...hubby register and come out and he say have to wait for 25 mins and go in and watch the "wheel of fortune" while waiting ( very long never see this variety show) ...after 40 mins finally our turn, and this is our FIRST TIME seeing the MP lol but the person who help us maybe is the volunteer or the assistant of the MP...hubby was the one who interact with her and than tell her the whole things and she still can't get the meaning and have the say and say until she can understand...we went to see the MP is because our conservancy bill and we have a few month never pay and they charged us $400 plus and the bill is $30 plus a month lol and we got 4 month plus never pay so it too much even thought the town council charge us the lawyer fees and the late payment so we want the MP to help us see can write letter to them to waived the lawyer fees and late payment anot...i hear my hubby keep repeating why we came and want the MP to help and than lastly the miss of help us FINALLY understand...we even ask her about the childcare fees and the subsidize and see whether they can help us find one childcare and infant care together so i can go out and work and my friend say the MP will help and the government is enocourage the mummy to go out and work RIGHT...Than we never get the answer we want she telling us how expensive the childcare can be and than not worth it to bring 2 kids to the childcare and i go out and work cos the fees will come up to alot and it will increase our expenses...This is my first time seeing MP and of cos we will never see the real MPs we will only get to see the assistant i think is our luck to see that assistant of our MPs but we saw the real MPs who in charge of our divison she is doing rounding she is playing with sarah & mikkiel for a while and she go for more rounding and i saw alot of people walk here and there actually i dun know she is our MPs after i saw the poster infront of me and state the MPs photo and the name and look exactly the woman who just walk pass me and play with the kids...After 30 mins we left so i can just simply put going out and work aside and be my temporary housewife and look after sarah & mikkiel first...i thought i can go out and work to increase our income so i will not see hubby working 2 jobs and he can just work one stable job will do...We will not be so tight and financial will be more flexible and we can have our own saving and not worry about the bills and etc............Reached home and rest hubby look after the kids...

Tuesday, i feel better and do my housechores and look after the kids and chatting with shiyin and godsis cos monday never chat with them seemed to be alot to talk and while talking i become from no strength to becoming better and better (after the sweat thanks to the hot weather) and thanks of my caring hubby and the care and concern friend shiyin and godsis spent the time chatting i offically well at night but due to mikkiel cranky at time i still cannot get to sleep well but on and off wake up to make milk for him...

Wednesday,life is still the same do the same thingsand finally have time to blog normally i will updated at night but i think the chance to updated at night will be lesser cos mikkiel cannot see me he cannot get to sleep so i have to stay inside my room to look after him....Hubby came back and his turn to be sick cos working too many hours and must force him to go see doctor...